razmilsyaaaaaaaah

2006-10-21T11:36:00.000+08:00

I won't be updating unless Blogger cooperates with me.

2006-10-20T00:23:00.000+08:00

I had so much fun.Like I've concluded,being with him is so much happier and ending the day is always something sad to think of,especially after and outing with him or my darlings.You know who you are.

We met first,then met up with Rafiq at Bugis Junction.We window shopped and like oh my GOD there's so many things that attract my attention there.The bugis market especially.There were jeans going on at cheap cheap sales and I only have $17.Bf wanted to but a sweater for $25 but he's also shortage of money.Poor us,we even thought of buying the same pair of watches for ourselves but the none of the watches there attracts mine or his attention.

Sad eh?

I only treat him buka.We ate at this kopitiam but hey sedap you know.We all ate nasi goreng but different abit.Mine was kampung,Rafiq's was ayam,bf's was pakprik.He ate so fast and finished first,and excuse me,I started eating first.He's like that whenever he's hungry.Haha,cute lah.

For the first time we buka-ed together and I'm so happy.Teehee. =)

Another sad thing is,we didn't camwhore.I brought my camera but we didn't took any pics.I thought of taking it while on the way home or maybe somewhere in the middle of just now.Probably I was too worn out and I don't think I could like,get my mind going.I looked at the reflection of ourselves and I was going,awwwww,we're so sweet,not to be proud or anything,it's just my thought.Someday I will post a pic of us,I promise.

I didn't think he get what I was thinking then but still,I love him.

Tomorrow's a Friday and last day of the week.My class will be going to Science Centre and I'm like too tired and lazy to go.Well,I've already paid for it so I don't think of wasting my edusave money.I studied for it anyway.Hope it would turn out something great like today too.

I'm formal in this post.I've got no idea why I want to be so.My eyelids are heavy,well,I'm off to bed now.I'm done.

2006-10-18T19:06:00.000+08:00

Okay so what more can I ask for?Mum allowed me to go to Bugis babes.TEEEHEEEHEEEE,am I lucky or whaaat?Kay now I want to confirm if we're really going tomorrow.Suddenly cancelled seh.Alah sad ar SAD ARR.Eh tomorrow no school yahooo baybeh.

*jumps around like mad dog <- HAHAHAHA Shi Jie!!

My foots are having double blisters.I hate malay dance practices but I enjoy attending them.
*shows stupid but proud face.

Next week the performance and I'll definitely make mistakes.I don't know if it's going to be slight,small mistakes but confirm obvious ones ler.I hate putting on the make ups.So the tebal like cheeeeeena mampos eh no no like the chinese opera we watched yesterday.

Later rayer wear those also lawa what.Nyahahaha.
The blusher mak oi so pink.Still going for it? =]

Eh nures I want my tie back you **insert NICE NICE words for her here.**
So the sec fours graduated.No more twin in WRSS.NURES WHY MUST YOU GO BABE?I MISS YOU LAH LIKE THIS MAAAAN.Alamak if she reads this confirm she cair kembang solid nyer.

I miss my boo, [holy crap what is happening to me siak].Please please please let tomorrow be a great day for me and not spoil my mood by cancelling it.I don't know why but I'm easily hurt when someone planned and cancelled last minute dates or whatsoever.Like,I also don't know why.

What I know I'll be sad ah then you'll see me on the bed snoring.

2006-10-17T21:26:00.000+08:00

Skip that part and fast forward >>>>

So,it started when he said he forgotten his keys and his mum just went out andand he cannot enters the house.Pathetically dumb of him to rush out of the house without his keys.I mean,HOW HE LOCK THE GATE?

*thinks hard till brain juices flows out of ears & eyes.
kay aksyen jer tu.

3rd November,still near kan kan kaaaan?Haha,for your info ajek,my birthday lah deyy.
YEY YEY.time rayer lak tu.YEY YEY.
*skips merrily till bumps to the wall.

I had my most inner and deep down to earth experience just now.Cannot help thinking of it ah muahahaha.The feeling cannot be shaken off lah deyy haha.Best best I like it harder and steamier.Like understand only.If you're that yellow brained time I suggest you skip reading this cause I don't wanna be responsible for any horniness.

Next Tuesday is already rayer and how can WEEEEE not get excited about it?
Eh I don't know there is kueh rayes not at my house.huahuahua.If any of you wants to come oh please bring your own kuehs.If can bring your own drinks along thank you.Teehee.

This is my second post right?Kay sooooo random.I find blogging not that satisfying.I want people to know about my daily life but you know,you just can't express EVERYTHING here.Like wtfcukme only.Pfffffft.

I'm really extremely very whatever-y happy & contented with life.
I've got a boyPREN.Now I can really see the love he's showering me & he DOES care about me.Kay maybe about the problems,we made promises.Teehee.
I've got my loveable kooky goofy friends who was always laughing their ass out.
No farting kay.
[too explict content]

Kay where that bf is as he's not calling yet.
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I feel like doing the chicken dance +++ craving for KFC.
Not now laaaaaaaah perot.Nafsu nafsu...

2006-10-17T14:05:00.000+08:00

I'm so dissapointed with my results.Not that I've failed anything,but I've been dropping my grades like from an A1 to c5.I don't blame anyone for that.I don't blame relationships too.Why?Because if I can be attached during my previous years and also obtain distinctions,+ being first in class,why not now right.Well,fate that is.Still,my aim is to go to 3-4.I don't care what people says.I'm still going for it.

I have something on my neck that hurts.Blueish black and red red around it.I've been putting on creams and even my make up to cover it but somehow the make up cair.Bitebite I think.Kay like understand only.

I'm still not fasting so don't be jealous kay babes.

Me & bf planned to go break fast together at Bugis this Thursday since it's a holiday for us.Oh boy oh boy oh boy.I must fast lah that day,since that girl thing ending soon.I want to buy the shirts,bags & jeans there.Oh and make up and shoes and accessories and money.

2006-10-15T19:13:00.000+08:00

I've deleted my previous post.I find it not nice to share my personal problems with others.I mean,what's the use?I don't gain anything.I'm just finding sympathy for myself.As if I want to be the centre of attraction.I already have some good listening ears.Right?

Dad is still painting the walls at my bibik's room.
He's not having enough sleep these few days and I'm worried for IDK what reasons.

Bf is at Bencoolen Street with his family.They're shopping and breaking fast there.Cool right?I bet he's having fun for today.Arghhhhhh,I want to be with him now!Maybe in these two weeks or so,we're going to Bugis.For IDK what reasons he WANTS to buy sweaters and marshall clothes and to me spending bucks on me is more worth it.Cheh cheh cheh.Oh and breaking fast there.

I want jeans,I want tees,I want black pumps,I want slip ons,I want earlobe piercing,I want lenses (kay even though my eyes are brown,ehem),I want to grow this tall,and can I have another wishlist please?

I would not be fasting this few days or a week for some reasons that you should know cause you're a girl.

I'm looking for ideas to make a new skin.This time,I'll keep it very,very simple.Wait wait I'm searching for it at Blogskins.Kay I've found it!Time to edit here there and walaaaaaaaah!Tomorrow's a school day.Even though we're released early than usual,I'm going back late as I have to stay back.Fcuk laaaaaaaaah.Luckily there's only two malay dance practice for this week and none for the following week.Get ready WRSS,there's going to be a mini concert during the last day of school. =)

This cramps driving me nuts.

2006-10-14T16:53:00.000+08:00

Happy 8 Months To Us.

I want to setia with him and only him.I love him and only him.I miss him and only him.Anyone who hates us or whatsoever (and that includes having evil plans to ruin our love),HAHA!Dream on lah babe.Try snatching him away from me and I'm going to hunt you down tauuuu.Cheh am I fierce or whaaaat?

I miss NURES ah.Haha,I don't know why ah sister.Out of sudden I cannot wait to meet her on Monday.Kay ever since that night when we have soooooo many things in common (I swear there's more coming up if only we have not been so tired after screaming and laughing in front of the computer like whatthehell).Want to see the similarities?Check out her page on my links or simply go to this link :

Click if you're the next NURES twin

I hate going to madrasah now.Haha,I don't want to see my ustadz face ah.He asked me to memorise the whole surah and then when it's time for oral he was laughing around and teasing me.I hot hot heat ar!Think funny or what I spent most of my time memorising and at last he said he'll test again in the next two weeks.

Oh and no madrasahs for next week and the week after.Fcuk ah best best!

I planned to sleep at 4 just now.Now is already 5.See,this is what people meant by janji melayu.Talk big but don't want to do.Haha.I miss him laaaaaaaaah bitch.Kay whatever I meant it.I don't want to attend school on Monday,cause there's malay dance but in one way or another I must go.Two hours seems like 5 hours there and I'm sure I'll be dragging my legs home,not my legs dragging me.

To that guy,thanks for no longer disturbing me cause I'm forgotten in your life.Oops,I remembered that I used to be a stranger to you.I don't ever want to repeat my mistakes ever again.

2006-10-13T20:43:00.000+08:00

Welcome To The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said,
"Son when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken,
The beaten and the damned?"
He said
"Will you defeat them, your demons, and all the non believers, the plans that they have made?"
Because one day I leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join the black parade."

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said,
"Son when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken,
The beaten and the damned?"

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go. Through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
When you're gone we want you all to know We'll Carry on,
We'll Carry on
Though your dead and gone believe me Your memory will carry on
Carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I cant contain it
The anthem wont explain it.

And we will send you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all
So paint it black and take it back
Lets shout it loud and clear
Do you fight it to the end
We hear the call to
To carry on
We'll carry on
Though your dead and gone believe me Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated You're weary widow marches on

And on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause
I could not care at all Do or die
You'll never make me
Cause the world, will never take my heart
You can try, you'll never break me
Want it all,
I'm gonna play this part
Wont explain or say i'm sorry
I'm not ashamed,
I'm gonna show my scar
You're the chair, for all the broken Listen here, because it's only..
I'm just a man,
I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who's meant to sing this song
Just a man,
I'm not a hero
I -- don't -- care
Carry on
We'll carry on
Though your dead and gone believe me Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated You're weary widow marches on
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
We'll carry
We'll carry on

and I officially announce that I have a sister.
Nuresah bte Abdul Ghani.

Kay spot the difference,namer bapak.
Someone swears she'll jump down if it's also the same.MAUT MAUT...
We have damn fcuking too much in common siaaaaaaak!!

Somemore now we are currently having bitebites.We love the same rock songs.We have boyfies.We are oldest among siblings.We have three adek beradeks.
OI IMAGINE LAH WE ARE HAVING 10 and more more moooooooore similarities.

Wait wait there's more.Kay dah sah we have that somethingsomething.

nuresroq&nanasyah.I kindda like that now.haha.

2006-10-13T19:44:00.000+08:00

1 more pathetic day.

Kay so nures,how's the bitebite?Best kaaaaaaan?
EH I SOUNDED DESPERATE & SEXUAL MINDED.dah memang pon.

SO..I and my syah went to Causeway Point to watch Stay Alive.If anyone tends to see us that time,oh ho,I remembered you guys.Do envy us as if we're the most perfect & loveliest couple of all.CHEY like real only.Kay so met with D'fiee,an online friend.Wah you and your bf sweet lah.Your bf wore a stripy shirt kan?Haha,nice meeting you.See,I met one friend.

I saw Faten,Suraya & Syahirah from Marsiling Sec,D'fiee and boyfie,Rafain BELO,and some other guys.Kay I forget who but I'm sure I saw them.So back to Stay Alive.Best lah the show.The scenes scary and disturbing.It reminds me of House Of The Dead,that game,any guys played before?Ah like that ah.So go watch,satisfication guranteed.

I reached home just in time for buka.Luckily mum didn't scold me or anything.PHEW...

My sister keeps playing this game that goes,Merah jambu cerah,merah jambu,biru keunguan,coklat kekuningan,biru,hijau,kuning PLOK.PLOK.
Sound effect mahal and cute.Colouring game.
Tidak sesuai untuk kanak-kanak berumur bawah 14.EH AKU BELOM 14!Kay paisey ah babe.

I want to mandi,dah I'm so done.What?Nak ikot aku mandi? (:

2006-10-12T18:35:00.000+08:00

2 more days.

You actually took the time to go through all of my posts?Wow,that,ermmmm,cool?So caring.Haha.I really,really hope you are not offended by anyway.About that single thing especially,sorry.

I changed my heading there to his name.I love him lah,and so don't mind that.I'm not really into blogging now.After kena spot check by him.Hehehe.I'm afraid that any thoughts expressed here would hurt him in one way or another.I don't want any arguements and fights between us.We are getting along pretty well.In fact,tomorrow we would be catching a movie.Stay Alive.I heard that the show scary.Kay I'm quite a scary cat.

I'm going to spend my time till buka,in front of the computer.

I slept the whole afternoon and I was sweating like mad when I woke up and even while talking to him.As if he's too hot or something like that.Eh what I'm saying siak.

2006-10-12T11:20:00.000+08:00

Muhd Razmilsyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.You read my blog???
Alamak paisey lah like this.Hahahaha.
Nevermind I still got talked about you what dear.

Kay I'm fcuking happy.No more exams for me!YES YES YES ARRRRRRRRRRRRR!
My art piece just now was nice and colourful.I've put in so much effort and I'm proud of it.My face stressed seh all the way for that whole 2 hours.Then somemore Cikgu Yati delayed our time.I'm having a dance item so I'm not going for more items.I hate going up to stages.Think I superstar or what appearing ten times on stage?Later got many fans syah jealous.Kan you?Hehe.

It's always me and never you seh.PFFFFFFT.

I'm bored of blogging.GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

2006-10-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

Still stuck at 3 more days.

I went to the bookshop to buy those things needed for tomorrow.I'm pretty excited about doing this art piece.Eh I never before put in so much effort in Art before.I used to not handing in works on time or even if I handed it in,I never did a nice and excellent job.I'm not as creative as you think.I get ideas from other's and do minor changes to it.Pffffft.

Mum bought for me a new dress that I really wanted.Thanks mum!It's greyish in colour and it's not really a dress.It is fitting on the waist and looks like a dress but it's not.Kay get it?Oh nevermind.I love it anyway and it's cheap.

I need a new photo editing software.Anyone can lend me Adobe?
Don't tell me to buy the pirated ones cause I don't see any pirated CDs stores anywhere,unless you expect me to go to JB just to buy it.That will be stupid and if I kene caught I'll damn you.

Are my ears deceiving me?I'm listening to rock songs only.I use to hate rock.Punk,emo,anything rocky.This is what you get if you combine an oh-so-average lady and a rock&roll soccer player.Great chemistry.Eight months of being together and I'm loving it.I love him,I love me,I love us.I wish that sometimes he could go into my blog every single day to read my posts and maybe stop telling me off.On second thoughts,maybe not.

To that guy,please for god's sake stop bothering me.You never turned me on except him.
You're a casanova afterall,like I've expected.I never thought of falling for you.
Neither do I want you,cause you have a pack of lies waiting.

2006-10-11T12:11:00.000+08:00

3 more days.

Left with Art.I've found the pictures I want to use.Indeed I've found 2 of it.The wings are so colourful but I'm not using too much colours this time.I don't want it to be like during the mid-year when I had NO sharpener to sharpen my pencils and I ended up putting so much pressure on my art piece just to get the colours.My colour pencils now are still long and not blunt.I'm buying new colour pencils and sharpeners later.sayang accompany me!

The paper just now was chicken Mcdodol lah.Haha,not to that extent.I expected it to be a bit tougher that the previous papers.My dear Miss Gan set such an easy paper but I don't think I'll be passing it this time round.PFFFFFFFT.

Genatically I want to be like her.I found another prettyhead with such fair and flawless skin.Long brown hair and big eyes.Grr,hot hot heat lah looking at chiobus.Can I be like them?NAAAH talk to my hand farhanah.Oh yeah,I'm still at Friendster since the past few hours.I was busy editing it and like,you know stuffs like that.To those who receive a testi from me,be thankful cause now I rarely send testis.

My stomach grumbling already and my eyes are getting heavier.I got no eye bags okay.
i miss him lah.

2006-10-10T20:02:00.000+08:00

4 more days.

So,I'm left with 2 more papers.Math paper 2 & Art.I'm doing ripple effects for Art.I think that is the only thing that I have some ideas on what to do.Geography just now was,okay I don't know how to rate it.The MCQs are quite difficult for me.The others I find it well,pretty okay.Except the world map.I don't know what the hell I was writing and I'm like doing one question and almost fell asleep.I should have brought some toothpicks with me just now,just in caze I doze off.

Hang out with bf and friends just now.There was this group of I don't know how to say it,but they're minahs.I notice them keep looking at us and I find it quite irritationg.I was the only girl there,mind you.Haha,but I'm just beside my bf so,no offence.I was bored staying at home too.He then send me home and okay someone tak puase aiyooooooooh.

I'm now searching for ideas to put in my Art project later.I want to do something related to nature and and something that is feminine.Or should I say,err,beautiful?Kay what the heck am I saying.

I realised that I'm starting to fall for rock songs.

2006-10-09T19:05:00.000+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday To That Boyfriend of Mine.
That darling.Hoho.

Science is a total dread and I'm sure most of my class will flunk it.I myself was blurring all throughout the paper.Kay now for geography.

Went to bf's house just now.I bought him a whole packet of Merci or is it Mercy? chocolates.I spent bucks on it tau kay cheh cheh.'Afi effing cute and way too hyperactive.I was asking bf,you,klau si kecik nie ank kiter mcm mane arh?.He said,anak?MAMPOS AKU.
I've got no pictures taken just now but 'Afi spoiler actually.Irritating and wants to manja with me.EHEM EHEM.

I still miss him even after spending the whole afternoon with him.PFFT.
Eh bunyi bunga api,puasa tak complete nak rayer konon.HAHA.

2006-10-07T13:02:00.000+08:00

I woke up pretty early this morning.I don't know why I find it hard to go back to sleep,I want to sleep laaaah but I cannot.Check out something :

Cute tak cute tak?Haha,my cat actually banyak outah.Why?She in front of people step muker cute,innocent lah can say.Then behing you all kaaan,she attack me,she bully me.Serious,don't believe you come to my house.Oh and btw,my cat name is gegerl.Style kaaaan?Haha.

2006-10-06T18:02:00.000+08:00

Kay I just browsed around and stopped at Aunty Nora's place.I love her blog seh.So organised and interesting!You rocks lah aunty! =)

What is your worst fears?

Currently my worst fears are facing my exams now.This year is my streaming year and I really want to do well in my studies.I do not want to end up in a class where I don't even know anyone and separated by my lovable friends.I'm also afraid of hurting and losing people.Especially my mum and loved ones like syah.Seeing them hurt affects me in some way,lagi-lagi when it comes to mum.I love my mum okay. =)

Are you evil?

Haha,yes sometimes.I ever planned to take revenges but ending up feeling pitiful towards then.Now tell me what kind of evil would do that?

Have you ever shaved your head?

I'll not entertain dumb questions lah babe.When you're a baby you got punk hair ehk?Botak right?

Would you rather be an elephant or a tiger?

None of the above.Can I please have more options?Kay if I had to choose,probably a tiger.They say I fierce arh.Hahaha.

Would you rather freeze to death or be burned alive?

Freeze to death maybe.I want to live longer.Let me die peacefully if I really had to go.

How do you feel about your parents?

I love them soooo much!They are my everything!Even after my fight with dad last time,which,haizzz,totally brings us apart.We no longer talk much,but I know he still cares about me. =)

Ever told someone you love him?

Yeap.Who else if not that bf kaaaan. *blushing

How did you tell him you love him?

I'll take his hand and look at him in the eye,then manje2 with him.Like what the hell,haha.Then he'll confirm ask me if I love him everyday without fail,of course,I'll reply back saying the same.

Did he say he love you back? What did he say?

YES!duhhhh~ He say lah he love me more than I expected and wants to be with me,konon setia lah gitu.Sweet lah sometimes,when he says that he scared of losing me.Hahaha,like kekek like that.

So, do you have a boyfriend now?

Like wt-toot,yeah lah.

If you dont, do you want one? What kind of guy do you want?

I already have one lah you idiot.I'm really really waiting for him to call me up at around 3 and tell me he misses me. Awwwwwww.

Psssst,I suggest you guys take the test.All of you in my links,okay?Cheers!

2006-10-06T17:05:00.000+08:00

I'm having a sore on my left eye.I'm rubbing it persistantly and now my left eye is smaller than the right one.Hahahaha,I look like a mutant.Kay action jer.

So both papers were quite ok.There were the easy parts and the most sucking one.For the math paper,calculators were not allowed and I had a rough time dealing with big numbers which leads me to endless workings.The history paper totally sucks 80% of my brain juice.I can feel the straw being poke into my head and some monster sucking it.Great now I'm turning lame and I sure feel stupid.

The answers for the history paper were the longest and I spent the whole time writing and writing and writing and writing...
(for the source-based questions)
The short answers totally makes my blood go upstairs.The history teacher says that there will be no questions about communism.Like what the hell,there were loads of it siak.Haha,I'm losing marks now.

I used the whole packet of tissue paper in less than 15 minutes.

My nose turning red and it hurts damn much.I'm feeling sick and sleeping for about 3 hours just now was a bliss.I feel like sleeping again later.All the way until break fast.Speaking of break fast,my classmates planned to go break fast at Toa Payoh.Eh the makanan there very power the ranger you know.Nice and comes in wide wideeeeeeeeee varieties.Kay cannot talk about makan my stomach grumbling already.

Remember the madrasah guy I used to talk about?He's dead.I guess he's not the one too.I still love my razmilsyah even though we face conflicts and misunderstandings.This fourteen is our 8 months and I'm really expecting it! =)His birthday around the corner too.Next monday,9th October and I still haven't bought anything for him.Oh oh,must go buy something this Sunday.

I realised that today is 6th October while I was reading the instructions on my maths paper.
SUDDENLY I REMEMBERED IT.In my mind was a picture of Amy!
She's so beautiful seh!Her picture while she was taking a picture of her reflection on mirror and the sides were clearly typed,6th October.I straight away messaged her after the paper.
Sorry I didn't get anything for you dear.Happy 15th Birthday sweets! =)

Happy Birthday Amyiera!

2006-10-05T19:40:00.000+08:00

I can't resist blogging even if it's for one pathetic day.

I just have so much to say but it's like so little time.

Sad arrrrrrrr.Hello hello,I'm back.

even after one day of hiatus.

For the past few hours I've been into my own world.

I studied real hard for history just now while at the library.

It was quite an acheivement,why?

I never used to study at somewhere public & with friends,

plus gave full concentration to that topic.

Impressive.Haha.

I miss armeeza and I finally met her just now. =)

I'm already ok with him,we managed to sort things out.

Even though I'm still guilty for something I did.

I hope we can last longer than anybody else.

CHEH berbual world lah aku.Hehe.

I need more memory for my handphone.

I really have loads of songs to put in my h/p but there's so little space.

After getting duit raye then I go shopping.

Cheh macam confirm dapat gitu.

I will buy tees & jeans and Bugis.

School bag for next year.

I want new pumps too.

Adding to my list,my make ups.

School was pretty boring.History & Math paper 1 tomorrow.

Good luck to everyone.

oh oh and....

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY TO DIYANA

A.K.A DEEBELLO.

dah besar panjang anak mak.hehe.

2006-10-03T21:08:00.000+08:00

I can't believe I actually,did this.Fcuk me for being such a bitch.Rihanna's dedicating that song to me I guess.I'm really sorry.Cheers to me for acting as if I'm a good girl.I think I've gone way to far this time.Things are not as simple as it seems now.

School was terrible.He wasn't in school.I spent all my time thinking about all this and went moody all day.I spent my lessons "alone".I wanted to talk and smile and laugh around,but these lips were meant for sulking and sobbing.I'm not happy with life now.It's not fair.

I wish I hadn't be a burden to be one.
Cut those words,let's go deep down.

2006-09-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

I'm addicted to myspace.This is where the climax starts.Hey,check out the handsome dudes out there,they're much more better than the ones at Friendster.Serious.Kay I'm attached right?So,I'm not supposed to be checking out guys,kan?Not forgetting that he's sick right now.Cisss,jahatnyer aku. :(

The main thing is,myspace has this something that makes me attracted to it.
Don't ask,I myself don't know what.

i can't help saying that i miss you.
get well soon sayang.

It seems that I'm going to be ignoring Friendster soon.
Don't worry peeps,I'm still on it,but not as often as last time.
Do send me ~~testacles~~ testimonials dearies.

2006-09-30T18:45:00.000+08:00

My back aches alot.I spent about three hours editing and beautifying my MySpace.That was freaking pathetic siak.I know~At least I'm happy with it and no copying ok?Certified LOSERS.
*L sign on forehead.
correction,wrong pose,that's a seven you idiotic moron.hehe.

I miss my mr-nice-guy damn much.Oh where are youuuuuuu.Please please please please reply my messages dear.I know lah you're sick,understand understood honey. =D

This one is soooo random.NYAHAHA.
EH I miss this one vandalism saying hello,i love money.Like wtfuuuuuuck.
And guess what I wrote back?

fikir kau tu spongebob ah cam tu?

Haha,like siak only.I'm a naughty girl & pardon me,don't mind this pretty looks.
i am missing youuuuu - stacie OR-eo.
Oh oh!Syg replied!YES YES YES ARRRR.
I'm hyper today so anyone affected by me,that's your problem.HAHA!
Looks like someone is having a bad day today.Eh if muntah already batalkan?Degil lah nie anak.

what am I yammering about seh.
eh dah nak buka.YEY YEY LEH LANTAK

2006-09-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

Someone says he misses me.Kay what was that for.Ahahahahaha!
Buka was great,ate spaghetti bolognese and macaroni without cheese.
Drinks,Sprite.EH it's a long time since I drank that.So,I enjoyed it too the last drop.

I stink and smell like fresh poo. Kay not to that max laaah~

I desparately need new jeans right now.

i'm walking away,
from troubles in my life.

2006-09-29T12:40:00.000+08:00

Like oh my god,the comprehension so emo sak.
I tersengih-sengih tadi and I don't know if any of you realised it.
I'm so done with English & Malay,next!

I want to be,ehem,single.BUT _______. [fill in the blanks yourself]
I'm tired of being someone who desparates of affection and trying so hard to be a good girlfriend.Likewise,I'm not & never will be one.Kay so ask me to shut up.
What now?Well,lack of attention.

Oh great,no news from him at all.Let's just maintain it that way if you're happy.
yeah,& I caught you staring at me during reading session just now.Aku tau aku lawaaa~

6 days of fasting.I'm still on it.No batals.Today somehow I cannot angkat sak.Naaaaah,don't want to waste all my time waking up in the early morn for nothing.Basically I'm bored to do anything.Funny?Well true enough,I am.Eh,the primary school students celebrate children's day.Can wear home clothes.Waaah,kay best best laaaah.

Going out later,helping Atika with the chocolate cookies.FUYOOOOH,confirm power ranger nyer.at least i'm doing something to keep my mind from him.

2006-09-28T13:32:00.000+08:00

Whenever I get nervous during exams,
my pen-pencil-eraser-ruler or something must drop on the floor.

and it's not just an ordinary fall,it bounces.Then land somewhere far from my desk and poor me I've to use whatever things left.I was giggling again just now.Pathetic siaaaak that pen.Grr.

The English paper was OK OK laaaah.Both papers boleh tahan terok.
The first section was so emotional 'cos I wrote something about mum and I went all eeeuuwww when I re-read what I've wrote.So the geli tau.

Mum wants to go Causeway later and she keeps forcing me to go to sleep.Relax lah mother. =P

Oh sayaaaang,maner lah youuuuu.
Kenape/mengape/bagaimane/asal/buat aper/ tak reply?
Fcuk I sound like a [insert your word here]

2006-09-27T20:33:00.000+08:00

Looking at those prettyheads makes me drop my mouth wide open and this jaws hit the floor.
How beautiful they are and how they make guys go all gaga over them. =D

2006-09-27T14:51:00.000+08:00

English paper 1 and 2 tomorrow.Oh noooooo,how am I supposed to face this.AAAAAAAH!Kay I'm being too over.Yeah,and I'm turning into an emo wreck.FCUK,eh mampos,aku puaser.Haha.

School was just like yesterday punya yesterday and the days before today.I'm hyper for I-don't know-what-reason.Just like the old me,kan dear?Cheh,like he read only.Oh well,the math paper makes me go scratching my head from time to time.I was so stressed up that my eraser bounced off the table and went straight to the front part of the class.I admit I was blushing,the next door girl was laughing at me.Fortunately,nobody saw it.I was giggling siak.

1) single, taken or crushing?

- taken
2) are you happy with your life now?
-pretty much,yeah,maybe.
3)when you meet the right person,do you fall in love with him fast?
-well,maybe.depends on how long we've known each other. =)
4) have you had your heartbroken?
-yup,infinite times i guess.
5)do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable? -no,not at all.
6)would you take someone back if he/she cheats on you?
-well,if he already realised where he'd gone wrong,maybe yes.or else,na-ah,no & never.

7)have you talk bout marriage with another person before?
-yup.
8)do you want children?
-like duhhhh,i really love them,babies especially.
9)how many?
-2 is enough.1 boy & 1 girl,or twins maybe?
10)would you consider adoption?
-well...
11)if someone like you right now,what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings?
-tell him that i'm attached and make him understand.
12)do you enjoy getting into relationship?
-yup,but i hate being hurt. =(

13)be honest,what is the furthest you and your ex did?
-tell your mum that you're being a kpoh.

14)do you believe in love at first sight?
-well,kind of.
15)are you romantic?
-hahaha,ME ROMANTIC?ask him laaah~
16)do you believe you can change someone?
-yes.
17)if you could married somewhere, where will it be?
-melbourne,chehhhh.
18)do you easily give in when you are fighting?
-yes of course.
19)do you have feelings for someone right now?
-YEAP. =)

20)have you ever wished you could have had someone but you messed it up?
-yeah,once.

21)have you ever broken a heart?
-well,yeah.
22)if one day your best friend fell in love with the boy/girl who you deeply in love with, what would you do?
-she's no longer my friend.take him somewhere far.CHEH.haha.

23)are you missing someone now?
-yup,understand understood lah who.hehe.

Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.Write down their names in the list below. Tag them in their blog to let them know.And DON'T STOP THIS GOING AROUND SURVEY.it made ppl occupied. =)Get started!and the 5 ppl are :

-armeeza

-kiirah

-dee

-you

-anyone who wants to do this.

2006-09-26T14:34:00.000+08:00

I wonder where I've gone wrong now.

2006-09-25T22:45:00.000+08:00

I'm going to flunk my math paper one for sure.No calculators are allowed,and how can we all survive without it?Haha,what I mean is,our minds are not generated by computers that allows fats calculations to occur,right?So looooong to my marks~

Congrats to Hady for becoming the Singapore Idol.Jonathan was great too,don't be sad.Oh oh,and JAY WAS OH SO ADORABLE!

He sang No Promises - Shayne Ward and it totally melts my heart like somekind of chemical,kay whattheheck but seriously,how some people can be stupid for not voting for Jay at the first place.Cakap orang,aku sendiri tak vote.Hehehe...

School used to be great.Now,school [insert your own adjectives here]

I'm really curious by someone's profile.She put shout outs with number 32 at the end.She was and still a bitch.She thinks she soooo pretty and everyone's attracted by her charming looks and friendly smile.Well,I'm not going to say much,because it's a sin saying behind people's back.She really sucks.Today,yesterday and tomorrow.Girls,take care of your boyfriends.
but i really wish i could enjoy a single life now.

I still want to know what's the 32 for.Hearing all the bad things about him makes me feel bad.I really,really hope he'll change but,sadly..

2006-09-24T15:01:00.000+08:00

The first day of fasting was quite a torture for some of us.KAAAAAAN? =)
Well,a few more hours to go.It's easier to forget that I'm hungry by doing other stuffs such as blogging.

Kay I'm currently bored to death and it's about 3 more hours left.

Apparently I have no plans and tomorrow I have a math mock exam.Oh god it sounds as if its going to be an absolute tough paper.Math is totally something odious and no reasons for not hating it.Haha,what am I saying.All the best to those taking the paper okay?Good luck darlings.

Mum and little sister is still not home yet.I wonder what took them so long to go there.I can't wait to try on my raya outfits.I and boyfriend have one or maybe two matching colours.YEY YEY.If I'm not mistaken,I have black and gold and he has gold.So,there's still one colour in common.Hehehe.

I was so effing bored to death that I actually completed reading the previous book I talked about.It contains some weird words or maybe I should say,wide vocab that needs some reference to know the true meaning.Yeah,so I checked out the online dictionary which I added to my Favorites so it's easier to access.So semangat siak me.

My breath stinks.I guess there are loads more out there who have stinking breaths like mine.Kay no offence dearies.I want contact lenses.I seem perky in those metal specs,naaah,not suitable enough for a girl like me.Coloured ones with degrees.Oh no,that'll cost me a burden then.Hehe.Well,happy fasting guys. =)

2006-09-23T15:56:00.000+08:00

I and Atika were supposed to bite their heads but I ended up laughing.Ahahaha.

If you can notice,I'm trying really hard to control my laughter,see,Atika was smiling already!

Yeah,and this too.

Our shoes = our friendship kay what the hell.

This statue is marvellous.I'm amazed by it.

The girlfriend's loves.

I swear he was scratching his butt when I took this.HAHA.

I wish I could be up there.Sadly,I'm phobia of heights.

It's really hard to see her smile,but guess what?She actually enjoys camwhoring!

Nie sebenarnyer aksyen jer.EMO KONON.

Atika wore this babydoll blouse and she looks sweet. =)

I wasn't ready.Consider it a bad hair day.

Pure greatness being with them.

On the way there.We were sooo noisy at the back of the bus.

Guess what?Afifah was smiling at the back cause she thought she was part of the pic too!haha!

Yesterday was really an eye-opener for me.Not in the negative sense,but,it really is one of those precious memories that you rarely have.We all had fun laughing our heads off,getting lost in an unknown bus stop,taking pics anywhere we find nice,eat drink eat drink,walked around,making such a fool out of ourselves.Well,enough is enough I guess.Exams are near,in fact,it's next Thursday.English papers 1 and 2.Oh my god.& tomorrow is already fasting.See how fast time flies.

To all muslims out there,happy ramadhan.

Selamat berpuasa. =)

2006-09-22T22:49:00.000+08:00

I'm not going to say much.Someone just spoiled my mood WITHOUT realising it and didn't even say sorry.Fuck you you YOU ARRR.Kay,camwhore was my great relieveness.

Yah waiting for the pictures to be uploaded.Eh really arh,I never felt this angry before siak.My pm,my friends all affected by me.I'm NOT going for that CAuseway Point thingy tomorrow.Currently I HATE everyone.Sorry. =(

FCUK ARH.NOW BLOGGER GIVING PROBLEMS.NO PICS SO WAIT!

2006-09-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

I'm suffering from extreme depression caused by lack of sleep and some people just couldn't seem to stop pestering me to wake up.Ohoh,added with some naggings that could go on for I-don't-know-but-long hours.To be simple,I'm having a bad headache.

I don't know why I'm prone to headaches nowadays.Somemore I haven't taken my medications.Luckily mum doesn't know about it.Yeah,and mum,I'm very very sure I can go to sleep again at night or probably after blogging this.It's only Thursday and I'm already this exhausted.I seem very tired this few days despite not doing much physical activities nor do I do much in class.I know I'll always argue with Roy,get damn frustrated when Boon Hong keeps hiding my things,distract Aida from doing something and ask her questions,making hissing noises so that Atika could turn around but then I'll point fingers to Aida,make faces with Afifah and pouting my lips to show her I'm gonna kiss her soon,(kay ini aku action ajer!) and the list goes on.

School was dramatically boring and I hate talking about it.Exams in one week time.Here I am still into this blogging stuffs whereas some are already on hiatus.Talking about hiatus,they're studying right?As in,doing revisions and stuffs like that?Oh boy,I'm only halfway through.I flipped books and as much as I notice I couldn't get absorbed into my head currently.

and guess what?I actually put in all my effort and I didn't care about the class during that both art periods just now.I was so engrossed in doing the comic strip and AHAHAHA my characters so cacat siak.At least I've completed it and seriously I don't know what the hell was I doing.Fcuk me,I'm going fourteen but I still can't blow a bubble with bubblegums!It's fcuking embarrassing and I only chew on it until it's really,really soft and no more juices.So the memalukan.

Friday.AT LAAAAAST.The end of the week.Sunday is already the start of fasting month.Looks like I'm going to suffer from ulcers and dry lips again.AHA!Speaking about ulcers,greatest news of all.My lips recovered from that bulging thick goldfish lips.It no longer hurts.Cheers for meeeeee!

I wonder where the heck that boyfriend is.Oh and I almost forgot to have dinner.

2006-09-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

Another plain ordinary day just passed by.Sunny day,as per normal.I don't why I just love looking at the light blue sky and the sun shines through the windows of apartments.Kay what crap am I saying.Straight to the point kay?I love sunny days.It makes me smile and at some scenes it reminds me of hindustan.Merepek but truuuuue.Ahahahaha...

Basically I was in school today.Early morning I was sabo-ed.I was forced to eat this masaaaaaaaaaam sweet.Excuse me?It says on the label that it is extremely masaaaaaam."sour".Then,somemore already under my block say he still at home.Like fcukfcuk only.Hot hot heat you know.After school,not to mention,go on tickling my waist and my neck.Complain about how heavy my bag is.Express student maaah.Comment about that Da Vinci Code book.I love reading it so shut the ehem up.

Yaaaah,school.How lovely it is to elaborate more about it.Science totally makes me go dizzy talking about issues on SEX and stuffs like that.

One example? : Putting the metal coil into the girl's uterus and let it coil around it.

Imagine how painful is that going to be?Not only that.

For guys,imagine 2 litres of blood shooting out of your bird for several days/weeks?You're so so going to lack of blood.Interesting questions that simply makes me awake.CHEH nana biler part part gini bangon.

Having Miss Gan as a form teacher may be such a dread but she can be fun in some ways I'm telling you.I totally love her.HAHAHA.Kan dee? :D Somemore this few weeks there would not be any malay dance practices due to exams etc.YES ARRRRR!

2006-09-19T18:51:00.000+08:00

I was absent from school today.I get to rest for the whole day and I actually woke up at 12.It felt soooooooooooooo damn good being away from school.I'm sick and sick.Get it?Kay nevermind.

To Kirin,I want to ask you something.Don't forget to ask me the question.

I'm effing worried over everything.I want to obtain good results and be in 3-3 with the rest of my friends.I don't want to end up in a class which when I turn around I see nothing but a bunch of chinese girls who are nerdies or whatsoever.Thinking of this things are totally giving me creeps.On the other half,I want to go 3-4.I'm afraid to take A Maths as I have said,I have a weak foundation of Math.I want to take combined humanities.I'm good at Geography.AHAHAHA.To all friends out there,study hard for EOY.I don't wanna see any of my friends regretting or cry.It's sad to see scenes like that.

I promised him something.I want to be the old self.Something happened last night.I thought we're on the verge of breaking up.I don't know why,but he decided to hold on.We're still together,.Not to mention,I had to stop being friends with someone.Maybe somewhere there's the benefits.I'm waiting for him to cool down and take it easy.Partly because of this I didn't want to come to school.I wasn't ready to face him.Deep inside I still feel a bit guilty.Naaaah,I don't want to sound sad neither do I want to let others know how I'm doing.

The girl that I'm mad with apologised.Shocking news for me.Well,it seems that she already understand the problem.Thanks for that,yah,maybe it's ok.

Afifah,get well soon dear.We geng geng saket tak nak datang school kan?HAHA.Oh well,I miss everyone.

2006-09-18T19:19:00.000+08:00

He makes me feel so guilty.
About being good friends with his own enemy & hiding things behind him.
I thought I was the perfect and most loving girlfriend that he'll ever be with.
I just proved him wrong.I can't help shaking this feeling off.
I wanted to tell this good friend of mine that we should just be normal friends & nothing much.
It's totally destroying my relationship.
Like I've said before,I don't & never want anymore problems troubling me.Somemore exams are damn near.It's sad and heartbreaking.

Say whatever you want,I'm too depressed to speak.
Probably I was born an emo.

I know,heaps of apologies won't change your mind.You're not going to pick up that phone to reply me at all.Call?That's just beyond my dreams baby.I'm really,really sorry.I think,I just broke my friendship with someone.I think it's too obvious who.GAAAH just shut your emo nana.

Chapter six.Oh,the most gianest topic that my class have been waiting for since the beginning of the year.You know what they'll say,asking the teacher stupid questions like chapter 6 got practical? .God that's so obvious you darnass.As if you're going to be in a school of bitches and pregnant girls.?*(&^#quiowjhleb!!

Yet again,I'm still guilty.
Don't complain,you're not me.

I borrowed this book,titled breaking up is really,really hard to do.
I think,I want to start reading it.I purposely borrowed the book.Not trying to be sarcastic here.
& please,don't even think that I'm going to break up now.I don't want to be the one crying AGAIN and neither do I want to lose him now.

Oh oh,good news for me.I've completed math chapters 1 - 15.Yabada!

2006-09-18T01:09:00.000+08:00

I just finished my conversation with him.Now,for the next one.
Aku nie macam operator malam gitu.Hello?I don't supply sex calls okay.Neither do I phone sex.HWAHWAHWA.

Kay now I feel so [insert your feelings here]

I think I'm going to have a sore throat.Like what the heck.God wants me to shut my gap for now since it's going to be fasting month soon.AHAHHA.

What the fcuk am I saying siak.AHAHHAHA.Dramatically I'm being so lame.
Oh and I almost forgot that today is an official school day.
I'll update later.

2006-09-17T14:30:00.000+08:00

kye 10 says:
simon says close your eyes
'FAR-NA }* it doesn't matter anyway says:
*closing
kye 10 says:
ok
kye 10 says:
simon says open ur eyes
'FAR-NA }* it doesn't matter anyway˚ says:
*open
kye 10 says:
haha kalahh...tutop mater tkle bacer per
kye 10 says:
whek
'FAR-NA }* it doesn't matter anyway˚ says:
HAHAH!
kye 10 says:
hehe
'FAR-NA }* it doesn't matter anyway˚ says:
pandai kau knekan
'FAR-NA }* it doesn't matter anyway˚ says:
HAHAHAH!
kye 10 says:
HAHAHA!
'FAR-NA }* it doesn't matter anyway˚ says:
diam diam!aku cheat
'FAR-NA }* it doesn't matter anyway˚ says:
haha

hahahah!get it?

2006-09-17T14:11:00.000+08:00

See what my little sister got for her birthday.It's already considered belated seh!It's supposed to be yesterday,and later me,mum & her going to Causeway Point to look for her toys.I'm going to buy something.AHHAHAHAH..

FIVE IN THE AIR!LET'S DO IT TOGETHER!kay dah diaaaam.

It's not chocolatey and it taste,hmmm,sweet and masam.As long as she's happy ler my mum says.
I don't care,on my 14th birthday,I WANT A CHOCOLATE CAKE. :)

I have a whole bunch of wishes.Here's one of it :

I prefer it white.

I want to challenge Alif.I actually took this picture to show him that I already got the watch first.At last he found out he marah.AHHAHAH...Abang kiter kena tipuuuuuu!

I need a new skin.I'm making one now,but I don't know what to put as the background.

Oh well.

2006-09-16T13:37:00.000+08:00

Is it wrong for me to control him now after he had done something wrong last time that totally betrayed my trust?
Kirin,if you're online,tell me.OR at least tell me something about what happened cause it's really making me nuts thinking about it. :)

I'm still hungry though.I feel so so.

2006-09-16T13:25:00.000+08:00

I woke up feeling like this.My lips still hurts & swollen,I look like a goldfish.Despite me sending him two messages & he still haven't replied to any of them.I'm starving.I'm stinking.I need a hot shower with lots and lots of foamy bubbles.My brother lupp going to Johor today.I'm staying at home feeling extremely bored.I'm missing that boyfriend.I'm missing everyone that I used to be with.

I need time & my own space.

& as for now,who could give it to me?I don't want one problem to destroy my life nor make me feel so depressed.Oh wth am I babbling about.I'm trying to understand why I'm feeling like this.

Basically nothing happened yesterday.I bought earrings for my little sister.I got an extreme makeover from Atika.My hair looks definitely cool.Ahahaha,that was for yesterday only.As for today,I'm doing all my homeworks.I felt quite fed up he still haven't reply.FCUK,just pick up that god damn phone & at least say something you tooooot*! [insert your vulgarities here].

I'm hunting for food now.I want KFC.

2006-09-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

Fourteen.My Seven Months with him.
Well,I just hope we can kekal together.I really,really don't want to be the one heartbroken and the one crying when everything goes bad.It seems so wrong and,fcuk,I shouldn't be so emotional over a dramatic guy like him.I mean,if he dumped me or something.

Thanks for the wish NURES.I almost forgot about it.It was early in the morning when Atika reminded me it's Syafiqah's birthday.I still remember those words :

"kan hari nie 14."

Basically,I almost forget about it again because,we argued again.
And again,it's over small matters.JEALOUSY.For god's sake,can he loosen up a little?ME and Alif aka ALEP! are just buddies,or should I say,good friends.That's all.It simply doesn't mean I and him communicate as if we're couples or anything.Syah,I know you're not and would never read this,but I've got to tell you,you'll regret it if you still remain this way.CHEYY fierce ehk aku.AHAHAH.Oh ok,we argue just because of this Raudah.You guys communicate as if you guys have something on siak.Which girlfriend wouldn't get jealous,huh?Think...

I'm going to 3-3.I think that decision is final but I kind of regretting it.I don't want to take A maths.My math foundation is so so weak and I'm just too careless for more tricky problems.I don't know if I really can apply those formulas that I've learnt.I find the current topics now easier than the previous ones.

I'm having swollen lips now,it totally hurts me.I couldn't eat well,neither do I can drink thirst-quenchingly.I tried putting colgate and it fcuking hurts more.Another stupid suggestion to me is biting the ulcers.If I langgar a bit already painful,somemore you suggested me to bite it?You must be crazy maaaan.Your mouth definitely are full of those weird,weird shapes due to biting it too often.

I'm not updating on regular basis now.When I feel like blogging,I'll update.If no,then keep entertained by reading my archives or simply by going to other blogs lah kay? :P
Oh,and please please please,that tagboard here is not for display or any decorating purposes.SO come on down and tag ler.

JASMINE IS FINALLY OUT!YES ARRRRRR!

2006-09-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

Like whatfcukfcuk.

I don't know what the heck is wrong with this wireless technology that we have.I thought that they're oh-so-cool and not the ones that get into my nerves.I cannot sign in to MSN for the whole day and now I'm missing all my MSN peeps that use to disturb me everytime I online.

Tu lah aku,dulu sombong,orang tegor buat bodoh.Sekarang carik-carik orang pulak.HAHA..

Kay aku baru dapat tau yang semua orang tak boleh masok MSN.Haha,padan muker korang.Termasok aku. :P

I'm soooo sleepy and tired.My lips are swollen and red.I'm suffering from flu.I spent three hours with syg on the stairs.AHAHAHA!like siaaaak only.
School sucks,kay bye.

2006-09-10T19:36:00.000+08:00

Holidays are ending.
Schools are starting and this is when the nightmare begins.

I don't know.We only have about a FEW more weeks till the end of year exams.I'm aiming for better results but I'm not even studying now.Like wtfcukfcuk ~~SIAK~~ seh.
I'm not allowed to use the word 'siak'.Replace it with a 'seh'.
Well,enough of the breaks,time to get serious here.Ramadhan also coming soon.TWo weeks from now kaaaan?Puase korang-korang,jangan tak puase. :D

Hand out with Atika (kay I apologise because it's always her name appearing at my posts) and Nursha.Great time,you know.I never went out with friends for days and I feel syiooook.Planned to go the OMH.macam faham.
It feels very comfortable being with someone you KNOW AND SURE that you CAN trust.Oh and not forgetting,someone serious too. (I'm being sarcastic here :P)
We talked about our olden days and the fights we use to have with other friends.
Not forgetting that bitch or should I say,the troublemaker that destroys every good friendship.I still hate her now.Hearing her name makes me feel sick and tends to make me hate her MORE.After all those conflicts,I realised she's better off nothing in my life than something. :)

Oh oh,I'm excited.Can't wait for school tomorrow.I know a lot of people are missing me now.I can name them.HAHAHA.Not only that,I want to check out some new hairstyles or makeover that some of that peeps had.~~confirm kekek~~
Inter-class on Tuesday and going out with syg on Wednesday.YEY YEY.haha kay diaaam.
Oh yeah,speaking of boyfriend.I wonder where the heck is he.He didn't reply my last message.Such a greedy bf seh.

2006-09-09T11:48:00.000+08:00

& thanks for all those heart-warming,kembang kecot,makes me smile contentedly comments.

I'm not pretty laaaaah.I stare at the mirror to my reflection and I can say,my face looks like a piece of shit siak.Haha.Seriously,but then,thanks for the comments lah.

It seems that artificial hair is more likely to attract ehem ehem than my old Saloma hair.My hair is originally wavy and a bit curly laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.As for the colour,haha,this part I like to make Dee jealous,my hair is pure naturally original no added flavourings or colours,brown.

Mum woke me up today.She thought I cannot hear what she was mumbling about me sleeping late and all those nagging stuffs.EH EH,even the slightest dropping sound I can ter-wake up aper tah lagi this nag nag.Jadi my alarm clock pulak. :)
My women thingy started already.HJOHSBYD&*(V&*UYT DUGKB,mmpnu o98i*-*/nb!
The cramps like siak only.Every now and then I got to go to the toilet and pee.Rabak only.

Yeah so now he's back.Which means I cannot enjoy much freedom like when he's away.OH SHUCKS.

Basically,I have no plans meanwhile.Mum says we're going to the hospital today.My uncle masok hospital seh.His leg kena amputate,and he's in critical condition.Doctor says that anytime it can be his "time".SAD ARRRRR!
He was the first ever uncle to call me sumo and always make fun of me.Not seriously lah,but then I was a baby.I WAS LOVED. :D

2006-09-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

So want to see the new me?Here are them :

I look like a freaaaaaaaak.Or robot girl. :)

I accidentally got one black roxy shirt from mum.I'm not supposed to buy anything for some time but then the tees at Toa Payoh are going for cheap cheap sales and my mum says that it's not worth it to buy only one for my cousin.So,I got another. :D

I miss boyfriend.No matter what. <3

Hang out with ehem ehem.Cannot name him/her.Best best.I finally got a vanilla milkshake for only my own!

2006-09-07T19:58:00.000+08:00

Eh,aku dah lawaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.No more labels for me tauuuuu~

I'm no longer your Saloma
I'm no longer your Elvis Presley ke what-so-ever
I'm no longer the girl with the bad hair days

Naaaaaaah.My hair is perfectly straight (except for this nice small wave on the frindge but still nice)
It was a surprise lah actually,I didn't expect it will be today.Mum woke me up at 5am before going to work :

mum - kak,nanti siang siket dtg kdai mama ah.gi anoh rambot.
*sleepily,nods head.
me - ah...
mum - dtg dlm kul 10 lebih ah.ehk?
me - haaah?asl siangnyer?org tido lambt seh.
mum - abeh bile lagi seh.nk ke tk nk?tk nk sudaaaaah...
me - ah yelah yelah.

Seriously,I can't sleep siak yesterday.My eyes felt heavy only on 3am.Like fcukfcuk gitu.Somemore I'm worried about that bf because I don't know what the heck he's up to there.You can't be 100% sure that he's faithful to you.You know what I mean.

I'm breaking more and more pimples.My girl thingy haven't come.The signs of "it" is here.
Oh well.I've been a good girl today.I cleaned my room and mum actually sold the sofa set and this wooden cupboard in my room.
If you shout or scream or yell or anything loud,you can hear echos.Trust me.We're getting new furnitures soon.Raye katekaaaaaan.

Hope today jasmine out.HADY MUST STAY.
aku bangga dengan rambot aku. :)

2006-09-06T14:59:00.000+08:00

Like what the fuck.It seems I'm not going to change my hairstyle siak.
It's ok,I'll be patient,maybe later I'm going.Afterall,I'm using my money for my own hair.
Precisely,I'm bored to death and I need chocolates.Toblerone,Cadbury,Milkybar awwwww..
God,I sound like a despo.Disgusting~

I cancelled my plans.By right,I'm cancelling all plans for this week.I'm not going out with syg tomorrow,I don't think I have any fun plans going on this week.I feel so sleepy today.I'm lazy too.

Kay aku nga pedaaaaaaaaas.SIAL TOLONG AKU.hot hot hot hot heaaaat!best pedas.tapi pedas.
I'm eating tuna sandwich and I added chilli padi to make it spicy.macam style gitu kaaaaaaan.

Hang out with syg yesterday.Thought of going to the movie but then sold out.Tak sangke crite cartoon pon hot.HAHA...We ate at Long John Silver then.He looks cute when he eats.CHEH.Walked around and went to Popular.I'm attracted to the books and novels there.Best best gitu.The prices also best best. :)He made my day yesterday.I can't resist smiling.Many "things" happened.

I want to start with homework.Like best like that kasi otak stress.HAHA..

2006-09-05T12:00:00.000+08:00

I woke up pretty early.Not bad for a late bird like me.Wuhoo!

The breaking news that is really heart breaking really hit me hard.
The news about Steve Irwin who died freakishly yesterday.Maybe is his fate already.Australia suffered a huge loss sia.I really admire him and was damn impress with his love towards the environment,or animals I should say.He died because the stingray's barb made a hole on through his heart.I don't blame anyone for his death.Tell me,does that stingray knows anything about killing people?No,it wasn't on purpose what. :(

But I'm still sad.I talked to syg about this and he can only tell me to get over it.Arghhh.

I'm full.I eat alot this few days.I can't see why I'm not gaining weight.I want to grow tall and lose a few more kilos even though I'm already slim.I'm patheticlly insane I know :)

Mum says tomorrow then go rebonding.She's always delaying things and never make true promises.Oh well,as long as I MUST rebond my hair,then it's ok.Sadly,syg cannot follow me tomorrow,he needs to go chalet and not only that,he's staying there overnight!God,gonna miss him so but then,he'll probably enjoy himself with cousins.Take care dear.

Today.Supposingly,Atika asked me out.She,her cousin,her cousin friend and me.We hang out at Far Eastplaza and Esplanade and stuffs like that.Fun sia,but then,I woke up this morning to receive a message that the outing was cancelled due to her family going to KL.Oh well,it's alright.I'm not sure if I wantto go either.I'm going out with syg today,hang around and watch movie for the 625374847 times.As long as I have fun today,then it's ok.

I still haven't started on my homeworks.Oh my god,better get started today or tonight.I want to finish up my math and geography.English?Go to hell with ya.HAHA!

2006-09-04T20:38:00.000+08:00

Yes,plans finally confirmed and went on smoothly.
Despite the cloudy dark cool etc weather,we still went there.

At last,I got the handbag.
I chose pink with the flower flower designs,Atika took two,one for her & the other for her cousin.Both look nice sia,one silver & the other pink.Theirs look like err,kay aku tak tau describe,but nice ah.The shape very unique.I prefer the pink one.It brings out the colour.I spent a long time to tidy up my what syg called,elvis parlsey hairstyle and others,says it's a saloma hairstyle.Kay kay suker hati korang yer.

Mum says go for rebonding on Wednesday and then,I'm going alone.
Syg can only follow me tomorrow,so,we replace the rebonding thing with other activities instead.He suggested watching movie,since both of us has money,but then,no idea what to watch.Stress siak thinking of what to watch or do. :(

Damn it,I broke a fingernail.The middle finger.Suey betoooool.

This ex of mine has been calling me since just now.I don't know what the heck he wants,but I think there's something not right going on.He talks to me in this manje voice and seriously,it totally pissed me off.I've been making faces while talking to him.I'm such an evil and I'm proud.Cheers!

I'm bored and now I feel so full of confidence.I want to study and do some homeworks.I was thinking,semangat kebabian jugak aku nie.
I remembered talking to Atika about this things and some political issues just now.I freaked out because I never thought I could be so politic and cares so much about this stuffs.I never make any time for those.

I miss boyfriend syg or whatever.I miss him I love him I love us so so and so!
This coming fourteen is our seven month.I'm waiting for 9 Oct then I'll buy him his present.
Oh oh,he gets double,with money and from me,and I mean,me.
Cheh macam faham.

2006-09-04T13:37:00.000+08:00

After sooooooo much much much to the power of 7364529090-9 problems with blogger,I managed to complete this skin.
darnyoufuckfuckfuckninakaninabetoooolbluekihateyouuuuuutothecoresuckcocklah
I had to save my work after minor changes before the computer hang again.
Blogger dengan aku dier kerek arh.
I felt like squeezing the balls,poke-poke the eyes till it pop out.Stab the chest till it has a large hole (large enough for it's own head to fit through).Jump on it.Chokeslam it and let it suffer in pain.NYAHAHA.
Kay I don't know what's up with me now but I think the background is cute so I make it simple though.
I've got no time to make it sooo sooo nice and attractive and lagipon no one comes here often.KAAAAAN?

I'm bored today.I've got plans but then I don't know if it is still on.Atika didn't replied my message and when I called her,her sis says she's not at home.Hmmmm,weird.Oh well,if I'm not buying the bag today I'll go on Wednesday then.

What I've planned for the week is :

Monday : Buy that handbag before it runs out of stock.At the same time,hang out with Atika if she's at home and free.(Like I've said,I'm not sure plans are still on.)
Tuesday : Go to mum's workplace with baby and have a haircut and rebonding.
Wednesday: Outing aka LADIES DAY OUT with AAFAA (short forms of Atika,Aainaa,Farhanah,Aida,Afifah)macam style gitu kaaaan.hehe...
Thursday: Maybe going out with baby go watch movies,or just relax at home and complete my homework.
Friday: Jump from 12 storey at climb up again.Repeat routine till I'm dead enough. :)

Nothing much,my parents are working.My bro,he'll use the computer 24/7 don't worry.Then I'm going to tengking him so another riot at home,yes arrrrrr.

2006-09-03T16:50:00.000+08:00

The stains you get when barbecued chicken wings smudged on your shirt,
uh-huh and oh,brand new shirt mind me.Thanks to pakcik for carrying the chicken using only tongs and fcuk,now it's in the washing machine.Kesian aku.

And yah,not forgetting the bruise on my arm still because of that bodoh tapi sedap you nyer ayam.

"Laaaah,dah tak lawa tangan anak dare tuuu.hahaha..."

Kay aku kembang biler part lawa jer arh.HAHA!
You've guessed it,went to chalet but before that this jempotan kahwin at CHANGKAT CHANGI CC.Damn grand you,but then it cost a wealth.The groom handsome siak,macam nak kebas jer. =P

dad = waaaah,mesti mahal seh orang kahwin dier. *looks around
mum = tu lah,paling2 $20 ribu drg kluakan.
and i don't know who started this stupid lame joke,
mum = kalau effa (my name at home) kahwin kite buat kat hotel.
dad = ahh,kiter buat kat hotel kat geylang,lagi murah.hotel 81.
giggles around.

kimaaaaaaaaaak,never before di-try orang.
and if mum agrees to it,my family will be a history around that area.
pelamin kat hotel 81 geylang.
famous aku.and laki kesayangan aku.

Basically baby asked if I snore in my sleep which is so fcuking no. (stupid thing is,how should I know,aku tenga tidor per)
I spent most time watching cartoons which is oh best nyer to my adek adek because we'll always fight for the remote.Family aku pathetic siaaaak.
AND yes yes yes!at last,
my prince charming asked me out,thanks for saving me from this dream lala world.

just sit around and talk cock that leads to the first question he asked.
getting pretty sweet,which makes my heart melt hearing it.
not to mention his perfume that is stll stucked to my shirt.adidas seyyyyyyyy.
happy part is,while in the lift.MIRACLE GITU.haha.

2006-09-01T19:08:00.000+08:00

and to all teachers,

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY! :)

2006-09-01T18:49:00.000+08:00

I didn't update for days right?
I thought I would just take a break from updating on regular basis.About 1 day 2 days max and now it's like about 4 or 5.Nie lah janji melayu,selalu tk guna,selalu lambat.I'm proud to be an anak melayu.Oh ho,guess what I've got.

Mum bought for me a pair of so-called black slippers.I really like the flat heels and the pattern.Even though it cost more than expected.Hees.Mum also bought me this two layered Mickey Mouse shirt.Alaaaah,the one you need to wear a spaghetti inside and a half jacket outside.Black and white,it seems so vintage.
And now,I need $6 - $10 bucks for that handbag.Before 11th September.
That hand bag can also be used for duit raye purposes. :P
The deisgns on it really attracting and rarely I find bags that cheap.Got to have it faaaast!

I very the kembang seh today.I went to mum's workplace at Novena.Everyone keeps asking my mum and dad if I'm really their daughter.Then,they will throw out comments like, waaaah,your daughter so big ready aaaah, or maybe, your daughter so pretty! and another one,your daughter like chinese ah.

How can I not be kembang?HAHA.

Teacher's day concert,not sooo great but then a bit great je lah.Lots of couple dancing a,d kak nurul's dance was the best and interesting one.Groove it baybeh! :)

Oh that baby still haven't call or replied me.I don't know,too busy I guess. (eleh,busy konon)
I don't even know where the heck is he now.Playing soccer at AMK or blue court?Staying at his cousin's house?Still in woodlands?kena kidnap?CHOYYY.The last message I got was like several hours after I messaged him in the morning.He call I didn't answer,padan muker kauuuuu.HAHA...I felt damn sleepy today,even now.

OH,before aku forget.
joakim is finally out!YES ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
sorry to joakim's fans,he's vocal not to that standard ah I think.
Chehhh korang macam faham.

2006-08-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

It seems that every day I must,MUST update something about him and I myself as the publisher/updater find it so annoying and merepek telling about my love life to others.
By then,I know that I keep updating and updating but nobody reads it except me who go view my blog 156743000090 times like as if someone is actually reading it.
Come on,as if.Why can't I just be like any other couples?Who doesn't quarrel/argue or whatever.The exciting part starts and ends only a while.

See what happens now,after going-to 7 months,we're not so close like we use to.
It hurts,I'm better off single if this continues.That would be much much a relievant and pooof!
Life's a bliss.Look at me now,I don't get the situation myself.I just can't bear to tell him that it's way too late for us to go out now and he already said up to me,and just went offline just like that.
What the fuck?My dad's not working and don't tell me it's my fault.I'm a girl and I have my rights.I can't follow what you have to say always and be people's topic of the day (if you guys know what I mean).

I don't mind much now,because I'm now close to a use-to-be best friend of his.
I don't know how it started,but we ended up being best buddies.I talked to him about everything and he seems so understanding even though he's crappy at times.At least he knows when to get serious.Somemore he's single and definitely available.

But of course I shouldn't just leave syah just to go to him right?I still love syah. :)
Awwwwwwww.

kay so what's my real purpose of blogging now?

2006-08-28T16:09:00.000+08:00

i can't sleep during science,i hate math even though i'm a genius in trigo ratio & phyton ke merepek therom. (sorry i just couldn't get this word right)
i tried to be moody but then i failed because of the existence of some goofy friends who loves crapping around. :P

obviously there's nothing much i should say right.

i miss boyfriend even after seeing him around a number of times.
thought of going to his house but then he wants to go out with that oh-i-love-my-besties bunch of friends. (the stupid thing is,he invites me,stupid bello.haha.)
not try to look say bad things about him but this few days he doesn't pay much attention on me.
it's not as if i don't understand him or whatsoever.
kay blaaaaaaaaaaah blaaaaaaaaah blah.

oh my god this stench is killing me.
it's coming from next door and it smells like shit. wuhoooo.
i can't even gulp down my strawberry milk and eat my snickers chocolate.
(the only reason i'm stating this down specifically is because i'm trying to make you guys who're reading this mouth water.) :)

2006-08-27T20:32:00.000+08:00

i admit that sometimes i'm jealous for even the smallest thing.
like now,i'm jealous that boyfriend is now at causeway point having dinner at seoul garden with his family and cousins.best kan?
this coming saturday he's going to miss me,why?because i'm going to pasir ris there to have a chalet.
i can look at some cute hunks there.kay kay no lah kidding.
but seriously,i just hate it when he's having fun and i'm staying at home,bored to death,staring 24/7 in front of this dumb computer.
we girls want to have fun too,not only guys right?to me it's not fair.
just because we are girls.
i can tell that he's having a great time there.he messaged me and then never replied! :(
i was bloghopping and i found this song.

Gallery - Mario Vasquez

i have no idea if it is a new song or old one.
it's really nice and touching.
kay he still haven't replied.ishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh nie anak.
so tomorrow is another school day.next week is a holiday!wuhoooooo!

2006-08-27T12:26:00.000+08:00

repeatingly,i woke up and slept again.
woke up and slept again over and over and over again.
practically,i had this syiok dream siak.
i dreamt about us,err,shouldn't elaborate ah.MALUUUU.
but it's fcuking fun sial.i never had that dream before and i dream to have that dream again.
kay macam faham.

going out with my hunny atika and sweeeet aainaa later.
aainaa maybe ajer.atika confirm.
syah asked me out,but then not confirmed.
i miss him like hell lah. :)

"you you,nanti rayer klua dgn i tau"
"eh you nie,puaser blom nk rayer konon,ntah puaser ke tk.hehehe."
"i puaser...tapi klau u tk puaser i pon tk puaser lah,kater sehati sejiwer."
cekik darah betol budak nie. :)

2006-08-26T19:25:00.000+08:00

don't spoil my mood anyone please.
today i'm happy for no reason.
i smiled and laughed all the way during madrasah,which is a positive sign for everyone. :)

sorry i lied to you dear.
am really sorry.
hope you'll make up your mind and get over it please.

i know that he's mad at me for a particular reason.
i don't mind,even though i marah him a bit just now,sorry sayang.
it's my fault,i lied seh.tk baik seh me.stoooopid lah!
oh wait wait,he messaged!oh poor thing,he's having a fever.
shacks,he says probably he misses me too much.oh honey that's sweet. :)
he's getting sweeter and ehem,manja jugak tau.ahaha!
kay dah diam miang pulak nana.

so now,i can conclude that we're back to the old us again.
i'm trying my best to control my temper,and he's changing his damn attitude.
it's good then,i'll support him all the waaaaaaaaaaaaay~
oh yah,and about alep,he's been a good friend.no no,my best friend!
we're FRIENDS and ONLY that.
no offence right? :)

the clothes at this fashion was great.
i'm looking for that flowery dress to see if it's available at this fashion.
this fashion kan murah,hehe.
well,there were several types,and okay lah.
the tees there were great!i'm saving my money for those.
i'm trying to save $30 by next week to go to the movies with syah aaaand buy that handbag.
and it's HANDbag not arm or armpit bag.
it's gorgeous and going for $6 AJE.seriously,take a look at it at causeway point.
oh of course,i need new earrings and studs.
i want a knee length skirt too + new overall jeans.
kay berangan banyak aku nie.
insya allah i can fufill all my wish.CHEHHH.
so basiclly i went to causeway point only.
with that A-ainaa and also A-fifah.
nothing much,so tell me how's yours?

2006-08-25T20:24:00.000+08:00

kirah,now you know why i post like that kan? :(
and mita,thanks for noticing it.sooo caring of you to observe me. :(

since i didn't go to the movies with syah due to his afiq-ajak-i-explore-hantu thing and his tekong match,i decided to go with atika.
the good thing is,i enjoyed it very much.she truly understands me and i really love her.
the bad thing is,there were lots and lots of couples out there and some were doing "stuffs" like kissing etc in the cinema.i really miss those times when i used to be like them.
oh oh,and another bad thing,i cannot tahan and the lower part of my stomach was aching alot.
i drank coke all the time,and i felt like bursting siak.haha.i want to pee.
sorry to atika for disrupting you in the movies.
it seems like 123456+++ times i apologised to her,kay i felt guilty lah.

LOVEWRECKED.

good movie,out of 5 stars,i'll give 4.
cute lah the show and it's a really sweet and can say romantic comedy gituk.
maybe next week i'll either go with syah or atika.
i think i wanna watch the devil wears prada.I THINK ONLY.
loaded ah aku asyik nak gi tengok wayang jer.pokai lah lamer-lamer.ahahaha.

i walked pass tekong just now,i know i saw him,he too saw me.
i just looked away,i did it on purpose and i think he noticed it.
sorry dear,i just don't feel like looking at you.
~~it makes me sick~~ i just needed sometime alone.

i passed history,in fact,the whole class passed history.
great job guys! :)
and the practical exam just now,oh my god,i'm totally nervous.
i cooked this recipe called ayam mas berwangi.
i'm happy with my presentation and also not forgetting to thank atika for helping me.
thanks dear!
and now,i'm still feeling low,as usual.
i think my girl thingy is starting soon,cause i feel so different & i developed a pimple.hehe.
as i'm sitting here facing this computer,i'm waiting for his call.
it seems like he's not calling yet. :(

2006-08-24T20:35:00.000+08:00

i've been feeling down and extremely moody for the pass few days.
if you guys noticed ah,but i don't think any of you did.kan?
nevermind,i don't mind at all.
care less about me,i don't need any sympathy to make me feel good.
after all,i myself wasn't that perfect either.
i hate myself now than last time.
i used to love my eyes.
my hair.
my lips.
my nice slim body. kay nie prasan pulak siol.
but whatever,i USED to be proud.

so what if i even have a boyfriend?
he isn't stinking rich.
he's not handsome,neither does he have a great body.
he's darker than me.
doesn't match my charateristic either.and to think i'm proud and happy being with him?
it's getting miserable and tragic sak.
like,being in a dream i had last night.
what i dreamt?sure,i'll tell.

i dreamt bout him changing to his old fcuking pathetic bad attitude that sucks.
and there's more,he cheated and BUSTARD me again.
he stead with that yana,the girl who thinks she's soooo pretty and the fact is she's fcuking not going to beat me cause i'm MORE prettier.
oh yah,there was this part where i went to the place that her friend actually text atika(who's also another main character in my dream) and told us everything.
yah guess what?i ran to that place which happens to be in school and atika actually dreamt that she was in school too but outside staff room.
dier mimpi aper,tak samer tak samer.
ahhh,then then the impact was so great that my right shoe flung off when i reached the place,
and that's the funny climax!
kay malu tau sebab ader ke patot nak hung orang tapi kasot tercabot? :P

luckily syah wasn't in my dream.
or else,i'm going to kill him seh.serious,no joke.kater mimpi!

i woke up in total no mood. (and yes,i woke up late today.6:30.)
it's a good thing i don't have to face him early in the morning.
i'm sick and like,jelak gitu.
my trust towards him is already not to the max,since he lied to me twice.or maybe more.
the truth is,i'm starting to ignore him.
neglecting him,avoiding him.
oh please please please don't tell him or even let this happen to me sak.

but however,
i still wish i could be in his arms,
let him kiss me on the cheek or kay pape arh.
like all those sweet but maybe yucky memories still bothering me seh.
so macam how?

and for school.
i flunked math again by like two more pathetic marks.
and some of my results improving and also deproving.
like what the fuck.
i still hate school no matter what.

stress sak now.

2006-08-22T22:07:00.000+08:00

i told you,girls WILL nevertheless remain girls.
unlike for the ones who totally lost trust in boys and you know what they'll do kaaaan.
probably guys nowadays really sucks and like,don't appreciate girls.
eh i know lah girls in this world nowadays macam ehem KITER nie kan many.
but don't need to play with feelings,because we just like you have feelings.
kay why am i in this kindda topics sak?nyahhhh kay kay diam.

we cute per so envy us tauuu.CHEH CAM PAHAM.
shalyn elmaya the baby picture cute kan?
just like us no i mean atika.
yang "us" tu i tambah tambah only.extra katerkan.hehehe...

mother tounge sucks to the core.
wanna know what we did?
see :

we took many shots just to get a PURRRfect one.
this is the results baybeh~
and we ate bubblegum also known as singgam.(nenek ajar)
i tak pass blow bubble siak. :'(
sedih seh member tk tau buat bubble.ahahaha!

somehow,somewhat.
i felt different being with you,
but i thought the feeling existed a long time ago and extinct recently.
don't tell me it's coming back to haunt me.
never.

i really wonder till now seh.
i wonder if true love really exists ; for me.
what if...he is really waiting?
alah~ you guys won't know.

2006-08-21T20:11:00.000+08:00

i'm always BORED and SLEEPY in class,school,canteen.
yah WHEREVER and WHATEVER.
math totally drives me nuts.you know the trio ratio thingy?
basically,the formulae and stuffs like that is damn simple,but somehow something keeps bothering me and it can be quite confusing.
everyone keeps complaining about math and i don't think i'm the only one kaaaan?
so kay aku ader members.

yah okay,she's making such big fuss over not putting back the headphones.
hello?
the FCUKING HEADPHONE is already in the damn BOX and just stop your babblings?
thanks my dear ROY for putting back for us and for telling that preacher about that.
oh yah,we're kind of happy because you retained the class a few minutes which affects our math lessons.
the subject the WHOLE class didn't want to attend.oh jooooy!
so do you guys think that i WANT and WILL elaborate more on this school episode?
think again,the answer is an obvious NO.

oh oh,and to that dumb boyfriend.
eh you you,i tunggu your message ke call ke miss call ke dari pagi tadi seh.
dah naik malas i tunggu tau.
kena marah dengan cikgu kan?memang padan muker you.ahahaha. :)

and i think that will be enough for today.
i'm done and happy after telling this off.
i'm done with my rants,babblings,complains,blah blah blah~

2006-08-20T17:32:00.000+08:00

i ate two plates of rice.
i was bored and so i and my cute-mute cousin coloured cartoons.
i just unleashed the kid that's in me.YAHAHAHAHA.
i even kebas my sis colouring books and when i'm fcuking fcuking bored i colour spongebob.
try experimenting them with different colours and have a great time laughing.
cute siak their new make-over.

i got my chocolate snowshake at last.
it's a bit too sweet,though.
alah who cares?!

kay i'm suppose to do my newspaper article now,which was supposed to be started now.
but then i wrong focused again.
hehehe...

2006-08-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

my baby made my day today.
love him till bits and pieces maaan~
i can see that he's struggling to change.
he's becoming more sweet and much more romantic that makes me go gaga.
watched an american haunting with him.
i fell asleep while leaning on him siak.
the story well,quite suspending and shocking.
scary too.
but still i get bored easily. :P

i makde a few changes to my skin.
well,got this idea while visiting some blogs.
thanks for the ideas guys. :)

2006-08-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

For the first time i ate this dodo instant mee.
i forgot the REAL name to it,so just anyhow agak-agak what i'm eating lah.
the mee got fishball inside.
& yah,the noodles,are damn short and white.try measuring it using your 15 cm ruler & tell me what's the length.
fcuking short siak and how am i suppose to stuff this thing in my mouth when mama keeps telling me it's worms!

"eee...macam ulat!haha!"

don't mind my mama,she quite hyper today.
macam baru strike 4D.ahahaha.

cikgu mary's last day is today siak.
not only me,but WE are going to miss her.
even though she ~~hates~~ me,i still like her deep inside.
i prefer her to cikgu syed,serious.
kay,so,tomorrow,new teacher,good luck to everyone laaaaaaah.
good luck for flunking your malay.
bullshits. =(
she's leaving tomorrow,going to India.
going to miss her damn much seh! :'(

happy news,no more tests.
home econs just now,yaaaaaah~ i actually forgotten some of the vitamins.
math test,i'm failing.sure enough,miss gan given me "that" clue.
i'm a slow learner and i failed my test for satuduatigaempat... fourth time!
babi.biler sak nak pass?!

tomorrow,going to the movies with him.
yaaaaaah,and again,my treat,and the last time i'm spending my pocket money on him.
fcukyouarhthinkiyourbabuperbustard.
i'm too lazy ah to layan him.
kau tak nak layan aku,aku pon buat samer.
kau dulu boleh menggatal,aku sekarang pon boleh. :)

sooo,i don't mind two-timing him.
but i the setia type ler,serious.
if i'm already attached,i can't bear two-timing that someone,
only if that person is a playboy or bustard,BOTH boys i stead and bustard lah.
easy-peasy kan?
haha,kay kay aku semakin hari semakin jahat.
entah setan gondol maner tah yang cocok cocok akuuuu~

2006-08-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

so tomorrow is another pathetic wednesday which is so-called,my bad day.
ohhhhh,how i hate wednesdays.
i have malay dance practice for three loooong hours & yah,math test is tomorrow.
shit shit fcuking shits.
i still haven't study much.like what the fcuk.
i'm sure is either i FAIL by like some 2-3 marks or i pass cukop makan.

the profiling thingy just now.
i almost fell alseep,even though the talk was great.
when my name is called,i know,bad news.
i'm focusing wrongly.
yah that's damn true & i easily get distracted.
oh boyfriend stop walking pass my class will ya? :)
kay,i remembered CLEARLY.
today in history,japanese surrendered singapore & we're free!
oh,and not forgetting my 6 months & 1 day with him.
HAHAHA...kay merepek i know.

i really find the counsellor's talk meaningful siak.
i like,felt a bit touched & there's something in it that well,i just couldn't mention.
he really can tell what's my character like and it's super duper amazing.
oh well.

& oh that dumb bf.
i waited for his message since 8:30.
hot hot heat lah dier tu.geram i tauuuu.

2006-08-14T19:52:00.000+08:00

myhappysixmonths.finally,we're six months together.

after everything we've been through together,
even after the recent incident that left me hurt,
we managed to work things out & got over it.
i still love you baybeh~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DINIE

The other pics is still with Rafiq.
Maybe i'll upload them once he put them inside his computer ready.
i had taken two videos,but i don't know if i can put them up here.
funny siaaal~
well,i felt awkward at first.
the guys gave dinie a big birthday bash,they all like,mosh him up.
(aku pon tak tau aper tu,tapi thats what my sayang bilang ah)
they were like,on top of each other & like rembat-rembat each other.
just for fuuuuuun~ you know guys,they're meant to be rough.
& violent.NYAHAHAHA.
i sabo-ed dinie!
thanks to me,everyone got their revenge.haha!
but my shirt has stains siaaaak.
sayang was lauging at me while walking home.
you memang selalu ketawerkan i.
he pulak has chocolate stains on his shirt,makan tak pass.hehehe...

& here are some pics i took last two nights while talking to sayang.
he was quiet,so am i.
i was effing bored,so,why not camwhore?
anyway,i'm pretty sure that you guys miss me.AHAHAHAH!

oh shit.
my headache is back again.
ohmygod guys i hate it!
well,be back for more.

2006-08-12T17:19:00.000+08:00

i realised something after all i've been through.
i've been cheated once,for about two months.
you took that bitch in our relationship & now it's ruined.
you then broke up with her.
but still,you lied,cheated,make up fake stories & never told me about this.
you are lucky i still gave you a second & last chance,
i thought it's just the end of us yesterday.
i was really expecting so,i guess.
i really never thought you COULD do some stupid things like this to me,
& I REALLY HATE YOU FOR THAT.
it seems that things have been improving now.
you've made your promise & i hope you'll treasure both that promise & the last chance.
i repeat,last.
i know,i'm not perfect either.

I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to thank Amy,Dinie,Alif aka ALEP!,Ash,Atika aka My honey,Nabilah aka my kakak angkat & i guess many more.

Thanks for being there for me.
Thanks for being a shoulder for me to cry on,especially Nabilah & Atika.
Thanks for listening to my rumbles & rants all this while.
Thanks for all those heart-melting words you gave me.
Thanks for all those good thoughts & advices.
Thanks for everything.

& really sorry because i've been a burden to some of you.
I hope my apologies will be accepted. :)

It feels totally terrible now.
I lost my trust.
He almost lost me.
Everything is topsy-turvy.
Let's just pray happiness would come around & heal this pains.
Fast~

2006-08-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

it's a total disaster.
& i seriously regretted.
i ran to my room & before i could even close the fcuking door,
i already cried bitterly.
and thanks to that BITCH,i'm like this.
don't ever think i'm going to forgive her or even WANT HER AS SOMEONE IN MY FCUKING life.

now you want to be angry with ME for not telling you how i feel & why i'm reacting so cold towards you.
hell with you lah!
you should know why and your stupidity really makes me want to slap both you & her face.
i effing hate that bitch and still you lied to me.
arghhhh.
i'm lost for words.

how i wish this nightmare would end.
i think this is it.
i've lost my trust towards you.
&...i can't help cursing myself for being sucha fool.
on hiatus guys.
i'm sorry.

2006-08-10T12:43:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY WAS GREAT~
the fireworks are like,sooooooooo big & colourful.
best best!i like...
well,here are the pics.
some are still with aishah.
maybe if she already have it,i'll upload.

and the ladies... ;)

& yours truly,the "barbie" doll. :)

and the national day celebrations.
our t-shirt design.
mine sucks to the core.

kay kay,nice kan the pics?haha.
well,i want to take a shower now.
i woke up extremely late today.
& haven't even had my breakfast. :)
later meeting him to watch movie.
well,at least i'm the only hope to make him happy. :(

2006-08-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

i'm still up and oh boy,i'm feeling so sleepy right now.
i was about to fall asleep just now,but then he messaged me & till now i'm waiting for his fcuking late reply.
pathetic but still lovable boyfriend,yah whatever lah farhanah.
well,i'm not going to Batam tomorrow.
thank god the trip was cancelled due to unforeseen circumstances.

kay so,maybe i was wrong.
he called me a looooong time ago & i didn't answered.
kay kay aku bedek pasal yang looooong time tu.
but it was long after i realised it.ahahaha.
but still,i'm mad at him for some reasons that of course i shouldn't tell any of you guys why. =P
however,i miss him soooo the much because it have been two days i've not been seeing him
(even though we were in the same school)
then,yah,it's true.
yet i love being "single" with that inverted commas. =)
so,national day is tomorrow.

no,wait a minute.
it's already 12:30!
WUHOOOOOO!HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!
& TO SINGAPORE,HAPPY 41th BIRTHDAY! :)

i only managed to take one picture today.
i'll upload it tomorrow kay i promise. *fingers NOT crossed
the celebrations today totally sucks.
no offence,but seriously.
it's damn plain boring.
only singing & the t-shirt design competition.
how i wish i could remove those ugly fabric paints off my tee.
yah right,it's already stated as FABRIC.
let's just stick to it.damn it!

so,plans for today,(cause it's already national day,wheepiee!)
going out with aishah to i don't know,maybe orchard or stuffs like that.
surely we'll camwhore.just wait & see.
girls,they just can't resist their photos being taken.kaaaaaaaaaan? ;)
thought of asking him to join us,but i'll see how.
i want a girl's day out & to just rest my mind after all those stress problems & school + blah blah blah.

kay,now i'm really sleepy to the max.
i feel like drooling to sleep sia listening to this jiwang song.
haha,i miss him mah.so,must jiwang-jiwang sikit.
aper kau merepek nie farhanah.
haish.

sweet dreams & good night. <3

i'll shoot,you die.

fair enough?

2006-08-07T21:46:00.000+08:00

Stupid.
I should have gone to Vista with Atika,and now,I'm moody because of him.
Yah,thank you boyfriend
For being "there" for me when I needed you.
Such a misery.Oh god!
Yah,what ever,I'm not elaborating on this.
Fcuking no.

Kay,school sucks & tomorrow's national day.
Yah,yey yey,great~
School released at 11am,kay good.
So?BIG DEAL.

SO,the big question here is that,what's the use of existing yourself around when you've got to face someone you are starting to get irritated?
Somemore,that FCUKING person is the one you love and you're getting tired of him?
Yes,I read my lines back,& I realised that I typed out the word TIRED of him.
No use for me to tell my problems to anyone.
As if anyone is actually reading this.
YAH RIGHT...
I can't see what's the problem here actually.
Is it just me being to emotional for the 12345++++ times or was it really him?
& yes,to that sayang of mine,i told you to go home first because i wanted to BE ALONE without you.
But still,you refused & i had to send you to the lift.
Yer,manja lah tuuuu...
Is not that I don't love,but,you guys see lah,people hurt others.

and again,is it just me or what?
i'm probably doing too much.
a little TOO much. :(

2006-08-06T16:12:00.000+08:00

Basically,i'm bored.
Kay,one reason that probably & obviously tells you why i'm blogging now,
Even though i haven't done anything much since just now except for completing my math homework.
My science homework is halfway done.
MAAAAAAAAN~ i need a break.Boleh stress aku tiap-tiap hari macam gini.
Anyway,i'm saving some of my homework for the night.
Nights can be soooo boring & i can only think wisely at night.
Kay merepek kan?but seriously,yah.

I didn't reply to his message 'till now cause I want revenge.
AHAHAH,tak sangker aku jahat.
Come on lah,don't tell me you never did this to your boyfriend before.
I'm not encouraging,so,don't be like me,kalau tak habis matayer korang carik aku,
~~mintak no.~~ TAK TAK! :)
Kay,time now is 4:15pm.
Please,please let it be five faaaaaaaaast.
Cannot tahan ah staying at home.
Oh,my dear honey atika,will you fasten up your speed in doing your homework?
Cheh macam dier dengar.

Since just now i've been listening to :

Malam semakin dingin - Spin

Achik,the lead singer,handsome kan?
I know,my ex per.Mesti ah.CHEH~
Farhanah semakin merepek,sombong & double lame.
Oh great,thanks to my stupid attitude.

NOTE TO SELF :

I must NOT eat chocolate starting from NOW till next Wednesday
Reduce my posts,aku nie update-update ader orang bacer ker?Oh well...
**stop being too arrogant.PLEASE~
Kay,that's all.
Eh,enough lah gundu.

2006-08-06T02:06:00.000+08:00

& finally,this are the results.
how's my fourth skin?
basically,this skin is just for me & i'm not sending it to blogskin.
i'm happy & loving it soooo much.
maybe i'm staying with this skin for a long time.
haha,let's see how setia i am.

i broke my promise to sleep before 12am.
GOOOOOOD!t's 2:06am & i'm still awake.
what the fcuk.don't tell him! :( hahaha.
macam betol~
i'm missing him so much,& i hope he feels the same way too.
well,he's been messaging me & telling me how much he misses me.
owaaaaaah,i'm blessed.
now that's what i call love.
my mum now doesn't mind much about me & him.
she says i'm old enough to think which is right or wrong & it seems neither me or him is giving up on each other.
ma,dah namernyer orang tenga bercinta.sial jer aku.NYAHAH.
in fact,my mum knows about me & him going out together sometimes.
kay kay best! :)

now,i'm going to sleep.
that baby of mine has been calling me since 11.
poor baby,i'll turn you on.
MACAN PAHAM~

2006-08-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

Let me start with a very cheerful HELLO.

Mustafa centre,oh my goodness.
Reminds me of Little India,which is also the smaller & imitation of the real big INDIA.
Yah,crowded with soooooo many indians & the place seems dark.HAHA.
No,seriously.
Well,at least i got myself the tees i wanted.
Thanks to mummy. :)

I'm having this super headache that hurts alot.
Fcuking lot,mind you.
Plus,i'm super duper extra much more sleepy but still,i don't want to sleep yet.
See,nie lah anak-anak zaman sekarang,bukan sahaja bodoh,tapi bengap.
Three cheers for me. :p
So,plans for tomorrow,or maybe 13 more minutes from now till sunday(which is also known as the last "holiday" of the week.
Maybe going to the library with my dear honey,Atika.
Sweet girl isn't she?

The girl in brown is my honey bunny.HUAHUAHUA.

Most of all,i miss my syasya.
Damn much+ much more than that
I'm not talking to him today,i'm exhausted & sleepy to the max.
He hopped by to my home just now,so,kay ah.
His new haircut sucks.HAHAH!
No offence yer sayang but seriously.
He looks much better with his old hairstyle.
& i totally love it when he wore that grey billabong shirt that has this kind of lacing ke haper ntah tu on the sleeves & neck
+ his hair goes up double plus the adidas perfume.
and and adidas shoes.
Yah,handsome per,to me lah sebab aku nie saper dengan dier.HEHEHE...
But then when other girls are starting to stare at him or acting like a total bitch,getting all flirty in front of him + ME,
That minah seriously needs a tight slap from me.
Exsqueeze me?He's taken & i'm his darling,and it will be a pleasure if you jump out of the window & die instead of being a bitch.
Thank you. ;)

& now i really need a new skin.
This one sucks,I know.
Maybe i'll start working on it tomorrow.
Now,my meeting with my soft comfy bed.
Oh,baby i love youuuuuuuu~
& my syasya. :)

2006-08-04T20:15:00.000+08:00

Sooooooooooooooo.

The conclusion or so-called lesson that I learnt to day is :

Having a remote control that controls YOUR life is not always the best thing to wish for.
TRUST me.

& guess what?That movie is rated PG.
I thought it should be rated NC16 or something.
Eh hello?It contains alot of this dirty-dirty things tau.
The dog do the "thing" with a soft duckie.
+ from the back.
Not only that,all the dogs that were living in that house LOVES doing that.
Pathetic sia.HAHAHA!
The actor,Adam Slender ke haper ntah tu realised his future that is not going to be good if he still continues to run away from all the problems & challenges in life.
It's a usual routine that every humans should face.
But then,it turns out that he was only dreaming about the whole universal remote control thing & decided to change his life for the sake of his family & future.
A GREAT COMEDY.
The ending quite sad.
Watch it,overall,4.5 stars.CHEHHHH.
macam faham~

Well,I'm having my woman thing,if you know what I mean, & I'm having this cramps since yesterday.
It hurts & gives me lots of mood swings to day.
That's why my date with my sayang didn't turn out that great.
I'm not that romantic ah today.SIAK JER AKU.
Yah yah yah~~hehe k whatever.

That egg curry sucks to the core!
Eh my cooking don't sucks kay,the ingredients lacking of some things.
Serious,nenek aku masak lagi power tauuuuu.
Next week common tests,yah greaaaaaaat.
Another torture ahead ---->
Aku stress~ :(

Someone says I maken manjer ahhhh.
Terharu i.NYAHAH.
Still,sayang him to the max! <3

2006-08-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

I can't help myself from being excited about getting back my computer.
OH,finally.
Usually,around this time,i probably be off to my dream land.
YAH YAH,don't ever think it's a very nice & good sleep.
I'll 100% sure that i'll wake up at around 3,then 4,then 5:30 then 6,finally,6:15.
By that time,I must call him up and wake him. :(
Speaking of calling him,I hung up at aorund 10:30 saying that i'm sleepy already.
ALAH,he also whaaaaaaat.
But until 12 i'm still not asleep.
There i goooooo,and again,i lied.
DAMN IT.

If he found out about this,
great.
I'm dead meat.
MCM PAHAM. :)

I'm up now,cause i feel like putting in some songs inside my mp3 list.
Well,i need some recommendations of new or maybe latest songs.
Any suggestions darlings?
Tag ah.
It seems my tagboard is like,"dead".
If you know what I mean.
Not much tagging lately.
OI KORANG KORANG NIE SUMER.
aku rindu korang,tag lah.
positive guys,no negatives.

& plans for tomorrow,hmmm.
oh yah,i will be watching click.
4:20 time slot,hope we'll get the back seats & also be the first few to watch it.
You'll never know what will happen if the lights are off...
macam paham~

Kay kay,my eyes are getting heavier.
I can't differentiate between black & brown now.
No no,not colour blind.
Aku ngantok.
Sweet dreams to everyone...

2006-08-03T19:22:00.000+08:00

& finally kan.kan.kaaaaan.
i'm back.
bring peace to the world!
CHEHHH.kk lame,so add another label to me.
total altogether,it makes up 20 by the end of the day.
MCM PAHAM.

GOD~
has anyone ever told you how much i miss my computer?
& my songs?
& my pretty pictures?(ahhh nie bedek)
& friendster?
& most of all,blogging.
i had soooo much to say siak.
in the middle of the day,there are many things i have planned to write down in my blog.
by the end of the day,it vanishes instanly.
yah,best best.

so,today.
no peer tutoring,& that ends the torture of MATHS.
YES ARRR~
malay dance members had our photo taking today.
sooooo,camwhore lah dok.
aper lagi kan?ahahaha.
i'm not going on and on about school.
how i wish it's friday today.

WAIT.
friday?
last day of the week.
oh how i love fridays.
school ends at 12:30.
+ going to the cinemas AGAIN with my dear.
watching CLICK.
yey yey kk best best.
we're back per normal.
hope nothing else is going to bother us.
sayang him to the max! :)

i already got my new ez-link.
but still,one wish of mine is still not fufilled.

stop eating too much chocolates lah farhanah.

2006-07-31T14:55:00.000+08:00

I know 've not been updating.I KNOW~
I'm in school having IT course.
My computer at home is still not working.
Kena virus siaaaaaak.
So,I just have to wait.WTF.
Kay kay,so I'm effing bored now.
There were like,much more pupils today than last week.
& bingit tauuuuu.

I miss blogging.
& friendster.
EVERYTHING.
God,I'm fcuking HOT down here.
Even though it's air-conditioned.
That stupid teacher is still not here.
School?DON'T & NEVER think of asking me.
I don't give a shit.
CHEHHHHH. (fierce tak?nyahahaha.)

So,I'll update for the before-before jugak yer.
Let's see,oh oh.
I & my sayang was like,having the "low" side of our relationship.
& it totally freak me out.
I love him soooo much & was scared of losing him.
Luckily we managed to work things out.
YES ARRRRR.
& went to the movies last Friday.
Watched Lady In The Water.
Great show.
& he actually fell asleep while hugging me.
SIAK ONLY.hehe.
KECOH ah him.
& we might be watching Click this friday.
hehehe. :)

& i sadly got to goooooooo.
miss me tau.CHEH~

2006-07-24T20:29:00.000+08:00

Soooooo.
I'm finally back.
I'm okay now.
Everything's fine & back to normal.
Oh,how I love it! :)
But but,one more thing,my computer still like sial.
I can't go in Friendster,& even Photobucket.
Like,not only that,some other websites.
Naseb I can still blog.YEYEYEYE.

I'm bushed.
I need to study for this history oh history... test.
GREAT.
Yer yer,& I still haven't take my shower.
MAMPOS BAU BACHEN.
ahahahhaa.
Guess what?My dad just bought a new Nokia 6280 siak.
JEALOUS I U.
Cantik,canggih.FUYOOOH~

More updates tomorrow.or later.

2006-07-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

my day went pretty well.
camwhored the whole time.

& for your info,that guy who took the picture with me is NOT my boyfriend.
He's just a FRIEND.
F-R-I-E-N-D.
Our story ended a long time ago.
It's now history...

Update more later.
I wanna talk to my syg.Hees.

2006-07-15T19:22:00.000+08:00

After 1234 kan?I think so,days of not blogging.
Finally,I'm back.I see my tagboard is like,dead.
Not much is tagging lately.Hmphhhh. :(
But nevermind.
I just came back from watching my sayang playing soccer at Tekong Park.
I met my ex,Haiqal,and it took me about half an hour to finally found out it's him.
He changed alot & getting more & more slimmer && handsome. :)
Well,it's history now.
Our story ended few months ago.

I didn't get much glimpse of my sayang.
I thought White Aces was leading,but then,DFC WON!
See,because I came,they win.
CHEHHHHHH~
Atika & I was the hosts for the day.
I became the host speaking in Malay,
& Atika translated everything.
We were laughing all the way when the match is still on.
There were mnany funny stuffs going on that time,
MANY.

AFTER EVERYTHING,
I finally get to meet my sayang,& him.
HEHEHE.tak maen ah scandal-scandal.
Aper nie sumer,tk baek.HUAHUAHUA.

sayang him to the max.
<3

Kk,dah hushhhhhh~

2006-07-14T14:59:00.000+08:00

as soon as i'm finished with all this,
i'll be back.

on hiatus.

yours truly,
me.

ps : HAPPY 5 MONTHS-IVERSARY DEAR!

sayang you many many sekali. :)

2006-07-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

Kay,let me get this straight.
You said hi syg at her in a MSN conversation.
Fine,i kept quiet.
You haven't know the truth.I hate her to the max.
I know,it was meant to be a joke but,
do you know how it feels inside?
HAH?To have a NEVER SERIOUS boyfriend?
She's like getting flirtish and like,ohmytootinggod.
If only you could see with your two big fcuking eyes how she reacted nowadays.
I would place a two speakers beside her & open the sexy naughty bitchy song.
SO you'll not only see it,you hear & feel it too. :)

Oh well,we'll see how long this is going to be.

I found someone who I can pour every sorrow of mine to.
Yeaaaaah~ he's a guy.
Very the pelik,but still,I kindda like him. AS A FRIEND.
I told him every single detail about my relationship and the problems I'm facing right now.
& it feels so good having someone like him who actually CARES to listen to my babblings.
Unlike my never serious boyfriend.
I wish they could like,swap places.
Then I'll take one,and say bye bye to the other.HAHAHAH.

Kay kay,so I'm getting lame since I came back from Malaysia.
I'm not sure why myself.
But still aku proud. :)

WHAT NOW?! oh yah,school.
We only learn things from geography & nothing else~
Most of the subject teachers that was suppose to be teaching today absent.
So,aper lagi,
ENJOY AH BABE~
The cake made by ehem ehem ME & Aainaa sedaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap.
chehchehchehhhhhh.

So,he played another prank on me that made me quite marah.
During mother tounge,

Message from him :
"U,u,u...Sugarmary dtg?U,after ur MT,pass my class k..Hehe..."

Something fishy is going on.
AKU TAUUUU.
Cause he never adds a 'hehe' at the same message he sent to me many times before.
Even if he did,AKU TAU LAH DIER ADER BENDER~ :)

Kay,so after mother tounge,walked pass his class.
He was standing at the front of his class as they were lining up.

"ambek paper nie."
I took the paper that was sticking out from his bandage.
Oh oh,by the way,kesian my sayang yang sorang tu.
His left hand swollen.
Serves you right sayang.HAHAHA.

When I read it,

HAHAHA!!
JALAN TERKHEDEK-KHEDEK!!
HAHAHA!!

I shouted chibai loud siak.
Loud enough for others to hear.
Merepek lah him,don't mind him folks.

& now,I broke my record for having sucha long post during a school day.
My bed sms-ed me.
Ask me to lie on him.
HAHAHAHA.AKU LAME.
alar~ diam ah.

2006-07-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

I changed my skin again.
This one looks simple tu.
Biler lah aku nak dapat skin yang complicated?nyahah.
Since I came back from Malaysia nie kaaaaan,
I'm like becoming more & more of a joker,
& lame.NYAHAH.

What?Oh yah,school.
ARGHHHH.Booooooring.
Supposingly we have to serve detention KAN?
Mr Siva play play only lah.
NYAHAHAH.i think so.aku asal boleh jer.haha.
Mr Razif absent.Watch soccer so ponteng school.
HAHAH CAM BETOOOOOL~
Lucky thing my IPW group no need to act the skit today.
HENG AH IF YES.i die....
& math,ohhhhh math.
GRAPHS.ahahahaha.
"enjoying ah cher" - me.

AND LIKE WHAT THE HELL.

FRANCE LOST.
& i KNOW i betted with my mum,alif and dee.

Hutang sumer aku settlekan besok yer.
Total $1.40
KAN?
& alif will go,"eh eh,$1!!!ITALIAAAAAAAAA!!!!"
dee,"jangan menangis...."
mak aku,"ahahah!padan muker kau kalah!dah kalah buat hal kalah lah....."

& now aku pokai....
*points to the wishlist.
CAM NERRRRRRR???

let me tell you this.

you're over-reacting & totally pissing me off.

don't think that you're pretty & someone likes you,

you're going to be acting like a bitch.

cause you're behaving like one.

if you're liking him,say it.

if not,let it be.

Kay kay,I'm done.

So,what gitu lor. :)

2006-07-09T14:24:00.000+08:00

Kay kay,I take back my words about staying in this hotel being boring.
IT ROCKS~ \m/
Lucky thing I followed.
Sooooo,here are some pictures.

The last pictures,both of them look alike kan?
They both "twins".MUAHAHA.
My mum bought for me that pink-pink cute face.
But it ended up my kitten keeps on hugging & biting it.
No no,didn't koyak.

My dad.
The most embarrassing thing that happened to him.

"Hello,good afternoon,housekeeping service here.How can I help you?"
"Err,hello.I'm from room 829 would like to have two more pillows and aaaaah~.errr,two..aper tu?ahhh selimut."
Korang confrim kekek nyer.
He speaks with this nak step speaking tapi sengau voice siak.

"Ohhhh!melayu ehk?laaaah,tk ckp.cik nak selimut?ok"
My whole family was like crying siak because we laughed too hard.hehe.

TO BE CONTINUED.
jengjengjeng....

2006-07-07T21:10:00.000+08:00

ALAH~

I'm going awaaaaay besok & for god's sake,I'm totally in no mood today siak.
In school,the part of my body above my ehem down hurts>Somehow,like having cramps.
When I reached school,I just don't feel like showing to the world like,
"hello fellows,I'm attached and I'll like you to meet my BOYFRIEND."
That's the reason why I didn't go to school with him today.
We don't communicate much lately.
I didn't want to talk much about him either.
Give me sometime to think it all over.again.

Kay kay,before I go any further about this so-called emo & serious talking,
Better change the topic.

Ok,school.
If love home economics.
I made my own small cakes.
& it looks & taste great.
Bukak mater besar besar and tengok lah saper yang masak.
YOURS TRULY.aku lah bodoh. :)
& after school,I saw 'Afi again.
He didn't notice me at all.
Only his mum.
&& his mom thought I was laughing at her when I was laughing at someone else.
mak dengan anak perasan.
=_='

&&& again,I played badminton with Atika darling. ;)
Shazly came & like wth.
Kecoh giler lah him.
Asking for my number and blahblahblah.

"eh eh,yang budak sebelah kau namer saper ehk...err...*thinking hard with that cramped look"
"ah ah,fikir.sanggop kau luper kawan aku nie..."
"*still thinking hard,stares at me hard too."
"eh eh eh,lamer nyer..."
"AHHH!farhanah,ohhhhh farhanah."
"APER?????"
"aku hensem tak?"
=_=''

He plays soccer and keeps coming back to our place like,desperate sial.
HAHAHA.
Kkk,I'm supposed to be stress kan?KAN?

aku stress sekarang.
tadi aku take a break jap.
:)

2006-07-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

Yah,time for the conclusion :

Love life,live it to the fullest. <333

Well,as you see,this one fat dumbo actually stabbed himself on the stomach.
He should have stabbed it through his HEART but he didn't.
Bengap giler.I nie pulak,aper lagi.KEKEK RABAK~
Aainaa,tengok dengan penoh semangat dan perasaan.
Atika,tutop mata jika PERLU saja.Mulot sentiasa berbual. :)
Ehem ehem.

FARHANAH :

pengecot nak mampos.
Orang tu belom buat pape dah terjerit-jerit macam minah giler.
NYAHAH.
&& not to forget,I closed both my eyes & ears while watching.
Thank you.HAHA!

Which leads to another conclusion,
never watch a horror movie with Farhanah.
Habis tangan kau aku kejekan. :))

Guess ready?I watched this I don;t know what show it's call,
But the title is Suicide.
Credits to Chandra aka Kevin for lending me the CD.
OMG.You guys,that's show seriously ehk,
rabak habis ahhhh.
There's this couple who goes around filming how people commit suicide &,
it's terrible.
& ALL OF THIS IS NOT A BUNCH OF FULL CRAPS ;
all are real.
I repeat,REAL,TRUE,EVENTS that actually happened.
Kay kay,I stop here.
Cannot angkat.
If only he was there with me.......

AHHH.Nie lagi satu.
This anak ehk ALSO KNOWN AS my arghhh,sayang,
I don't know ah.

1. He's getting on my nerves for I also don't know why.
2.ALWAYS FCUKING LATE.
3.Stupid apologies that never works.
4.fill-in-the-blanks ______.

Minor-minor things only.
HA-HA.
No big deal?KAAAAAN?
HA-HA.

My newspaper for literature jambuuu ready siak.
HA-HA.
Kay,kay.

Errr,forgetting something?
NAAAH~
HA-HA.

2006-07-05T21:39:00.000+08:00

It's about 9 then I reached home.
NYAHAHA~
Merayap jer tauuuu.
OMG.Afi so cute siaaaaak.
Hyperactive somemore.
Aiyoh,cannot angkat lah. :)

kk,craps I know.
So,I'm not really into updating my blog this few days.
I'm just tooooo lazy & tired.
I still have this fcuking science montage to finish up.
Like,wth.
Naaaaah,hack care.
Just cut cut paste only.HA-HA-HA.
School?Don't even think of asking.
I slept during science.
& during math,I'm like one dumb kid trying to figure out what's 1+1 (which I obviously know that is equals to 2).
sighs.
Graph use to rocks.
Now,two thumbs down.

I'm broke now.
& tomorrow's the start of this peer tutoring thingy.
45 minutes after school every Thursday.
& as you guys know,school ends at 2:15 on Thursdays,
unlike other schools.
MEREPEK.
Fortunately,this friday we're release at 12.
alah~ 1/2 hour jer.big deal.

Well,this montage thing really gets on my nerves.
ARGHHH.
If only I could only take a picture of myself,
&&& paste it on the paper.
The only thing that's left is to describe about the preeeeety potrait of ehem ehem.
NYAHAHA.

2006-07-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

I don't know why.
Today,I kept thinking of him.
Negatively excuse me.
Many things just came through my mind,
& the next thing is that,I felt so used up.
Somethings just not right between me & him.
I'm not bold enough to tell everything from A-Z.
I just wish I could be single now.
I'm like regretting sial.
bullshits.

padahal,it's just nothing at all.
I'm overreacting here.
That's why. :(
SO,I decided to make up my mind to eat his chocolate that I bought just for him.
Kurang ajar I know.
semakin burok siku aku.
hehe.

Don't ask me about my day.
The usual thing.
I think i'm starting the woman thingy again.
Moody days here I come.

2006-07-03T01:00:00.000+08:00

god~ I feel like sleeping now sak.
I waited for his late messages like wtf siak.
Frankly speaking,till now I'm still mad at him.
I couldn't explain why.
Things are going fine & working out but it's as if I'm the one ruining all it.
But who cares anyway?
He was the one who is seriously having this serious attitude problem.
Feel like cutting of his head & fried it sak.
NYAHAHA~ jahat jahat.

I'm still waiting for one of this stupid message of his.
While waiting for that fcuking i-love-you message,
I tried out some surveys I found at friendster's bulletins.
Some are preeeeety funny. :)

1. WILL YOU TELL THE TRUTH, THE WHOLETRUTH, AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH?
- err,maybe.you'll never know what kind of truth that comes out.

2. WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
- orange giordano shirt

3. HAVE YOU KISSED ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
- ahah.yeah.

4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ONYOUR TOP 8?
- what kindda thing?nyahaha,err,perhaps.yeah.

5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
- gosh,that's like,123456789... *counts toes & feets.

6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
- 2 at least.the less the merrier ahahahaha.

7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
- nope,only with mum.dad & i had something "on"

8. DO YOU MAKE OVER 40K A YEAR?
- obviously no.

9. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE?
- i'm better off with Farhanah.

10. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
- 10:30 am

11. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHTTWO NIGHTS AGO?
- sleeping.

12. HOW MANY OF YOUR EX'S ARE ON YOURFRIENDS LIST?
- about 123456 or 5 of them.

13. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
- want me to pull your hair?see you like it or not.nyahaha.

14. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TODO?
- meet him!

15. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
- now.kk,now now now now.cause its still the last time.NOW.

16. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLING?
- on off.but no at all times.hehe.

17. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
- my nose.its a spoiler of every picture.

18. IF YOU HAD $250,000 DOLLARS HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT?
- wisely.duhhh~

19. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
- tom wak lu!

20. DESCRIBE WHAT COLOR UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING?
- white I think.i check ah??nyahaha.

21. LAST THING YOU ATE?
- Hershey's Cookies & Cream.

22. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH?
- November.

23.WHAT'S YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE MONTH?
- when it comes to exam.september probably.

24. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
my bibik's black kimono so called blouse.

25. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW?
- him.

26. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
- blogs & friendster.

27. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED ?
- my dear hunny bunny syah.nyahaha,as if.

28. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD?
- mum.

29. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOURBEST FRIEND?
- err,maybe.

30. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK?
- anything thirst quenching except you-know-what.

31. FAVORITE FOOD?
- zinger meal or bandito.

32. FAVORITE DESSERT?
-red ruby or chocolate.

33. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE?
- nope.

34. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
- celebrate.buat party besar besaran~
hahaha.

This is what you get from someone who's so pathetic & boring like me.
I lived up to my name.
:)

2006-07-02T18:10:00.000+08:00

THERE.

My second skin.
This time,black,white & red.
& I'm proud of it.
Comments are appreciated.
It took me about 2-3 hours doing this.
The results quite ok lah.

I stayed at home the whole day.
I ate syah nyer chocolate that I promised him siak!
NYAHAHA. :)
Sorry tau dear,I got many for you lah bacen.
as if you're reading this.

& this will be the full updates for the day.
Cause there is nothing else to say.
I know today will turn out,boriiiiing.

& i'm just so stupid.
To be with you.
But still,i miss you. ;)

2006-07-01T17:45:00.000+08:00

I want to continue sleeping.
I want to sleep,sleep,sleep & never wake up only when I found back happiness in my life.
dah sah merepek.
I promised mum to watch hindustan with her
But it ended up me & my so-called kitten & cat gegerl going to sleep.
NYAHAHA.
Came back from madrasah at around 2:30.
I ate & suddenly my head was like,spinning real hard.
I slept lah.

& now.
I woke up because my hp rang.
Sayang messaged me.
Ader ker patot,he asked me about the ice cream man?
I like,pissed off siak.
I'm sleeping here,waiting for his reply,then he replied asking some stoopid question.
Ya allah~

Madrasah today.
Well,at least Amiera came.
Good then.
I have member.
Ustadz always kacau me siak.
Geram you know.
No lah,I'm too pretty.
That's why.
HUAHUAHUA.

k diaaaam lah.

2006-06-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

& for the first time,I left him.
NYAHAHA,tak sangker aku jahat.
No more excuses.
I already said if he's late then I'll go first.
ambek kau obat. :)
But still,I couldn't help being angry at him.
Till now seh.
Eh eh,tell me.
What kind of boy who ALWAYS keeps his girl waiting for him everyday no matter how late the time is?
&& helped him too much?

you think.
i'm not saying anything.

I didn't skip today,but I played badminton again.
&&& made new friends.
2 chinese boys from Sembawang Sec.
See see,nana baek tauuuuu.
Peramah orangnyer.
CHEHHHH~
Mcm siak jer aku.huahua.

I must drink milk.
I must skip.
I must play badminton.
I must attend every malay dance practice.
I must grow 2-3 cm taller in the next two weeks.

OK?
ok...

2006-06-29T22:26:00.000+08:00

I've not been updating regularly like I used to.
I can't believe I'm actually saying this,
but I'm busy.huahuahua.
Kekek sak aku.
So yeah,I'm busy since school reopens.
That explains why I couldn't update daily & if I never say hello to you you you you & all other youS after you at school...
Understand lah why.

I lose weight but I'm fcuking short.
154cm.
SHUT THE HELL UP PEOPLE.
Aku tau aku pendek.
Which also explains why I'm moody today.
Eh hello?I'm surrounded by tall people around me okay.
& I'm effing short.
I'm like,wtf.

I used to be among the tallest girls in class.
Goodbye to those labels.
I'm now the Top 3 SHORTEST.
I repeat,SHORTEST.
girls in the class.
& it affects me deeply siak.
Not trying to say I'm upset over minor things,but when will I grow?
Since err,I don't know,last two years?
It's either I go up,or I shorten by 1 cm.
NYAHAHA. :)

AIM FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS,STARTING FROM NOW :

grow at least 2-3 cm taller.

I don't mind going through all these hard works like what I'm doing now just to be tall.
I danced,played badminton for hours,running around,jump over small things,& tomorrow,
I'm going to do some skippings.
HUAHUAHUA.

last words : school rocks & sucks.Thank you.

close your ears if you're not listening.

Idon'tneedyounow.

Let me do what I want.

2006-06-27T17:42:00.000+08:00

I just discovered.
I can run long-distance too.
It's just like a miracle.

When you turned back to see if there's anyone behind you,
but all you see is polly-pocket sized people running with all their might to beat you.
But by then,you're leading.
You're the first & others are way far from sight.
It feels great.

2E5 was in 5th position for 4x100m relay.
but.
but.
but...

2nd for 4x400m.
cheh cheh bangga ah.
Of course,siaper tak bangga sak?
We almost give up siak.
We thought we're losing.
Fate prove as all wrong.
& it's unbelievable. :)

After 300m,
I pancet siak.
Then there was kiirah & atikah calling out my name.
They were like supporting me.
& because I like,almost fainted gitu,
I fcukingly asked them to shut up.
If you guys are reading this,
I'm sorry once again.
I cannot tahan ah hearing all this cheerings.
Like,they are obstacles & trying to distract me.
I heard clearly.
Many were cheering & screaming out my name.
awwww...I'm touched seh.
HAHAH.serious.
THANKS GUYS.

saaaayang korang banyak banyak.
:)))

I smell like a skunk.
Bacen lah akuuuu.
NYAHAHAHH.

2006-06-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

ahah...

THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.

which I'll always remember.
The day that I'm free without homeworks,
The day full of so-called surprises.
The day when the torture starts,nyahahaha.

I,as usual.Crapped around & never takes things serious enough.
It's the first day of school lah deyy,
why face need to be so cramped?
I miss alot of you,you,oh oh.& you.
ALAH.senang kater,I miss everyone.
kk?Fair Square.
=_='

No homeworks,nothing.
That's why I'm here typing this out.
:)
& for goodness sake,I'm really in no mood to attend tomorrow's relay.
Yah yah,guess what?School ends at 1:40 pm tomorrow.
& we have to be at Woodlands Stadium by 2:15 pm.
HACK CARE DOK.
=_='

ps:- guys,i hope you are reading this.

i know that you guys are like,facing some problems in your life,

but for goddamn's sake,

don't close down your blogs please.

You guys make it sound so as if you guys are like,dying.

Update dearies.

I'm missing you guys.

SERIOUS.

YOURS TRULY,

me.

2006-06-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

She's like a jakon when she saw my handphone.
Camwhoring is my hobby almost everyday. :)
But in the above pictures,my face somehow looks a bit cramp.
Sorry for the inconvenience cause.NYAHAHA.

& not only that.
Dad treat us dinner at Swensens.
I ate fish & chips and ice-cream.

Can say quite nice.
My bro ate this salmon & mushroom spagetthi.
But eating at Fork's & Spoon lagi syiok beb!
=_='

& to me,it's about one more day till school reopens.
I hate being a student,no no,I should love it.
ARGHHH.

where'd you go?

i miss you so.

2006-06-24T02:56:00.000+08:00

Firstly,I wanna thank shera for making this skin for me.
THANKS A LOT DEAR. <3
I keep going in & out of my blog.
I can't stop admiring the beauty of the skin.
NYAHAHA.perasan aku nie.

Secondly,I can't wait to meet my dear.
Miss & love him soooo much seh.
I'm thinking of buying him something.
Any suggestions?
He treats me lots of stuffs FYI.

Thirdly,it's 3:00 am & I'm still not sleeping.
NYAHAHA.
My homeworks are left with 20% like that.
YEY YEY.
2 more days till school reopens.
& once again,the torture returns.
NYAHAHA.

k lame,diaaaam.